Thanks, It's been a long time in development, regarding pain, when I am in a crisis state, I often don't know it, it's as if I'm unplugged, not connected right, dissociated to some extent, when I notice pain in a particular place in my body, it's an aha moment. I realize that my mind is messing with something, i.e., pain in my hip goes with one trauma, shoulder with another, etc., it's like a quick connect to the trauma that I need to work with, often they all hurt, means lots of stuff is going on.
The pain and the trauma aren't necessarily related, it's just where it's stored. I use the body pain as a guide to see what direction I need to go, which trauma is 'up' now. Working on the trauma, talking about it most often increases the pain and after a while it subsides, never for long though, maybe eventually.
I know it sounds nuts, it works for me.
