What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Froggie]

Happy, got a visit from one of my former clients. She is doing really well and is preparing her first album - yes she is a singer - which should come out this fall. I couldn't believe how she had become such a beautiful young woman.

 

[Spiderallis]

My stress-o-meter was bumping the overflow valve before the drunk man on his phone stepped a few feet in front of my car, which was going 45 mph. I swerved, avoiding both the intoxicated fool and the large truck in the next lane. I was on my way home from watching a basically untreated autistic pre-teen upsetting some darling toddlers at a barbecue party. I finally followed through on my aunt and uncle's invites to a gathering. I've missed everything since I wasn't well enough to share thanksgiving. My nerves are shot. I'm currently flinching from every thunder strike in a storm and the firecrackers that the neighbors are lighting off. I can't think of a word for the twitchy screaming inside. Is that a feeling? Little yelps and big tremors?

 

[wirefencelady]

I am worried about the payment from the Portugal lcient,he owed me USD18000.
God knows when he can pay /

 

[LawPhotos]

Less anxiety today despite more disturbing dreams last night.

I've been working on remaining on an even keel and trying not react to all of the fireworks outside. They only triggered me slightly when they first started. It really helps that my kids are all out with friends and I am home alone and the house is quiet. No real stimulation inside the house to get me all jazzed up. I know some have posted that they have great difficulty being alone. The opposite is true for me. ALL people set me off. The only time I ever feel okay is when I am at home alone-- a rare event for a single mom of three who works from home most of the time!!

 

[Ice_Fire]

I'm feeling anxious. Actually I feel more than just anxious,I feel like my heart is in my mouth and I kind of want to be sick. T isn't for another four hours yet! :(

 

[Philippa]

I'm feeling pretty buzzed from the day. I was supported and felt held throughout my ritual at school, which helped to integrate the transition from daughter to Woman, as well as heal old wounds. SO great.

Glad I'm home though.

 

[Anna]

Paranoid. Like everyone hates me and is watching me.

Time for self control. I hate those paranoid moments. At least I know it is all in my mind though.

 

[Srain]

(((((((((((((Ice)))))))))))))Hang in there, I surely understand that anxiety but it will ease off once you get going.

I am still feeling "off", not really feeling like I am able to post much but will try in my journal. I woke up off and on to HUGE BOOMS still going off well after 3am but unlike recent years I wasn't driven by anger/rage to go out find these fools to remind them that there were people that had to get up and work or any number of laws including the fire threats were being violated.

Our waaaaaaaaaay too stretched police dept has too much going, no doubt, to come take a look. At least they weren't setting those things off in my backyard like some years.

 

[Venusian]

Is being a hypochondriac a part of PTSD? On top of a couple other REAL medical conditions that have come up in the past year, now I think I may have appendicitis. Any chance this will go away? I can't see the doctor until next week. I am feeling a little scared and overwhelmed and trying to ignore the pain even though I know I shouldn't.

 

[Froggie]

Venusian, you best move is to get a validation if you have appendicitis because that could be dangerous. I almost lost one of my brother's because of that.

 

[Indra]

I feel lost but not in a bad way. More like every thought or feeling ends with a question mark?
I also feel amazed by myself for getting summer clothes from the attic on my own!:D

 

[Tinyflame]

Yes Venusian, get it checked out, my cousin died of that as a young person, also.

I am feeling resolved to put the ptsd on the backburner and ignore it, as I've done before.
I am feeling sad I have not been very thoughtful of others.
I am feeling resolved that I can hide the ptsd.
I am feeling hopeful I can start in a new place and keep ptsd to myself.
I am feeling hopeful this is the right decision and will be less burdensome for everybody.
I am feeling sad it took this long to realize.