What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[ninja]

I am feeling shaky. I am feeling overwhelmed. I am feeling the edges of peace. I am feeling happy. I am feeling a bit shell-shocked. I think I am finally learning that coming to terms with existential stuff probably won't happen permanently. I don't know that I have the capacity to. That's okay. I can respond in jest, I can respond to the enormity and gravity of the existential musings I am not in control of with humor and humility. I do not have to come to terms with any of what it means to be alive. It is too much pressure. I need a break and I need to play.

I am feeling conflicted. My neighbor is playing some fast-paced music. It sounds anxious to me. I am good at becoming anxious. I am trying to tell myself that it is nice to be able to feel part of a community. Would I rather it be totally quiet right now? Not really. I do miss family. So the company is nice.

I have a headache. And I am very tired.

 

[ninja]

My pianist neighbor I think is playing a miniature home-based concert. There is clapping happening.

 

[jaccat]

Like I want to climb out of my skin.

 

[Ronin]

Torch It & Ok where's my Diplomacy Brain

Aka: A doctor's visit ahead. :cautious::mask:
Fine, I'm fine. I can always NotTorchIt.

 

[Chiqui]

I am feeling
Worry (not sure I will be able to make it worthy) Life, I mean
What is a worthy life for you, Maria?
I feel I annoy myself asking me these questions
I feel I haven't done so bad. I am still alive, and I have survived.
I feel I should look closer my selfexpectations and allow myself to have a life.
More joy, yes, joy and enjoy, pleaseee

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am feeling a good sense of accomplishment and I am satisfied with what I did today even though I stretched myself a bit. I am feeling peace inside with a tinge of sadness.

 

[Ronin]

Ha. No torching needed, at times :D That was a: Relieved. Slightly.

& Still on multiple lanes of grief, but it's all loneliness. Hello? I need people like me around me. Being flooded by white people & not even intelligent white people eeverywhere has been making me more on edge than I'd like for years now. Neverevenmind. Multi culti city out there? I'm looking at you.

So: Determined.

 

[moshpitmunkey]

Despondency. Space cadet. Auto pilot-ish. Like a zombie. Dead inside?

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Feeling a little odd today. Sadness in missing the kids, plans to do things to keep me out of my head and the confusion I feel about my struggles to do just that.
Positive about my successes in taking baby steps.

 

[Lionheart]

I had 2 days of anger and as a result, one day of physical pain that had me in tears and now, I am quite settled. Although I am still a little upset, I am mostly okay today.

My next doctor visit I will bring up the anger, anxiety, and pain and try to get a medication adjustment to assist me with this wonderful subtype of PTSD that I have in which emotional pain is channeled into physical manifestations (pain).

Regardless of the source, whether it be Fibro, PTSD, CFS/ME, or one of the other chronic illnesses I have, physical pain can be very difficult to deal without some degree of relief in sight. It totally changed my attitude and mood into someone I would rather not be.

I feel determined to get pain control and medication management to assist with other modalities of therapy. I will empower myself to get things under better control, using all methods at my disposal.

 

[Anrish]

I'm feeling welcome...and accepted - and a bit tired.

 

[ninja]

Oh lordy, apparently pent up frustration