What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Lionheart]

Reflective, overwhelmed, sorrowful, blessed, and desperate for human contact...(ie, a voice, a hug, etc.,).

 

[Ronin]

Accomplished / that at least some rude can be made to behave.

And some complicated WeatherFeelings, alias joys cold storms bring.

 

[NatBird]

proud
peace
joy
gratitude
mild worry

 

[LuckiLee]

Hopeful.

 

[Tinyflame]

Sh*t on. Yet again.
lol

 

[VioletButterfly]

@Lionheart777 - I feel those feelings as well. Sending what I can - A hug and hoping that you find a voice. VB

 

[Tinyflame]

lol

This is too funny, I've got to add, I was up til 5:30 am. tossing and turning trying to get the nerve to do something at church today, amongst everything else keeping me awake. Running errands, bought vape juice- new girl , had to specify brand U-Turn. Come out of store, walk a block in direction of home, decide to not go tonight/ don't have enough courage to do it, text for other plans, see a U-Turn sign, thought I don't remember that at the corner? It says: "You are going the wrong way", and : "Fromdeathtolife", with some .com site listed, '180 movie', with 180 degrees and a directional arrow. I change my mind, despite thinking sign is probably some 'whacko's' , since church is 180 degree direction, let my feet take me, all for nothing. No, not nothing- much worse than nothing. Imagine- being so stupid to think that a) that a sign 'meant' anything, and b) that I did. #HowToStripSomeone'sDignity , or rather- #WhatAMoronICanBe. Lol.

I did, however, get approached at the bus stop by "Jamie", who offered me drugs- "lots of them", specifically "boosters", and a $295 hot coat for "very very cheap", that they had "just walked out of the Mall with". I guess I felt, low, tired, and cold, so they read it well. And some guy on the bus crossed himself getting on- The Church of The People. :tup: (Knew it couldn't be the driving, he just got on. :) ) Can't wait to see what the rest of the night holds, lol.

Grateful I got great news for something in December. Guess someone pulled for me on the day to honor the dead, lol. That and someone who actually gave a sh*t.

 

[Changing4Best]

I'm "falling in LOVE."

 

[ninja]

Like shit.

 

[Tinyflame]

Well, I tried my best, I gave others the benefit of the doubt, I trusted they'd come through, I stood and took the shame and didn't run, I gave it one more chance by blaming myself. I've hid my sadness pretty well for months- maybe years, for all that matters. I've learned what's important to me, and why, isn't to anyone else, literally no one. Idk how that makes me feel? Alone, lost, tired, sad, hopeless, betrayed, proud I tried, proud my tears (and tears) are internal and no one's business but mine. Empty.

 

[ninja]

Tired.
Done being "pseudo-counselor" for a few friends.
Looking forward to just some "lightness" and humor today.

 

[Tinyflame]

Good for you @Ninja . That's probably what I was, just a burden that couldn't be shaken.

Disappointed, and in myself, too; I was thinking I waited 3 months and it's been all I can do bearing with stuff the recent past, and to add salt to the wounds they knew that, because I said so, and they know how difficult it is for me to ask for help. I was relying on it for strength, which of course, is not their problem. It struck me how I really thought they were a better friend, or rather thought I was thought of better. Guess not. Guess I was/ am wrong. Didn't even have the concern to cancel or be honest and say forget it, or F-off. Doesn't matter now, though it certainly shakes my trust in other's words, or confidence in my own judgement. And of course provides no solution for coping. I weary of being reminded of it, but it's just more shame and humiliation. I suppose I don't have to beat myself up for having had hope though, despite whatever else is my fault, due to me being me or otherwise. But shame and humiliation are loud voices. I never expected to be considered, so I wish they hadn't said I was when it was untrue. Sure makes me feel lousy. More proof of sh*t worth. Don't know why I bother trying. Sure do question the words I'm worth bother trying, though.