What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[ms spock]

I'll sing with ya! Sure I'll be nervous and I have a court order telling me not to sing anymore but hell it'll be worth it :)

The funny thing is that when I feel like crap about the world while I'm driving I'll sing to some music playing on my MP3 player. Actually kind of makes me feel better about all the crap going on in the world. Then again I'll take peace and relaxation anywhere I can get it, because it sure as hell doesn't come often enough.

I love music too. It does sooth me.
:)
ms spock

 

[ms spock]

*takes a deep breath and starts singing with caliaviator*

 

[caliaviator]

I think that goes on here as well, though I do my best to surround myself with people who aren't like this...I don't have many friends though;)

I have two friends. One friend I've known since I was 18. He's been a brother to me and has always been there for me. My other friend he's actually graduating from UC Irvine. His major is Anthropology and his minor is Psychology. He pretty much strengthened me a great deal. I have one person I've known since Middle School who considers me a friend but I pretty much went off on him after he compared me to the Incredible Hulk when I told him I had PTSD. I seriously hate him.

I've had people in the past that I have made the effort with, who never returned it, and people who expected me to take care of them and treat me like shit when I would put up boundaries and not give into them too. Now I'm a little more wary about who I do extend myself to, especially if they make no effort.

You and I are in the same boat. I think I wrote something about that before these posts, but I'm tired of initiating everything. It makes me feel desperate and the only think keeping the friendship together is me. This goes with friends and family. I recently tried contacting my cousin I haven't seen since 1997 but she isn't making an effort to contact me. It really sucks. :( All we can do is try, and if we don't get what we give then I suppose we need to move on...

Yes, I went through this a few years ago. It was a huge learning curve for me, and I am still improving, though it has become easier than it once was. You're right about not being able to say "no" not having anything to do with gender...I mainly was talking about how women are generally in the role of caretaker of everyone, but you are right, it happens with men as well.

Gotcha, It's true that women are seen as the caretakers. People tend to see women in that light because they're generally more capable of showing emotion; at least that's the belief anyway. I personally stay away from defining any gender with a specific role and evaluate everything on a case by case basis.

You may be right. I guess I have grown up hearing women talk about it more than men, which doesn't mean that it doesn't happen for them to, just that perhaps they are more willing to express it or complain about it to me.

Men typically do it within their own circle or with a woman they can trust. I'm pretty much forcing myself to show emotion. It's a new thing for me to do, and I think it's preventing me from being an "emotionless robot" again. One thing that my last therapy session showed me was that when it came to showing emotion I'd show it then I'd go back into my shell and fortify. I'm forcing myself to show emotion so that the next session I can express how I felt in my past experiences better to the therapist. It isn't easy lol. But maybe when I can do it effectively my future relationship will benefit from it. That's a pretty big incentive for me to really work on this part of me.

 

[Srain]

In bed all day yesterday and the day before with screaming Migraines, out today feeling tired and better. Dream last night showed me that everyone on the boat was able to get off but me because my papers were not in order, no complete address. As I shoved off from the port I saw my kids, friends, parts of me, all that I loved left behind and I was all alone. The boat, once happy and full was now empty and echoing, all due to being incomplete. The doctor could not help me, there had been that moment my heart had lifted but I saw that address was fading, it had not city or state. just as the street was fading I grabbed it back.

I woke up and here I am. I am aware that I have to fill that person up or I will be adrift forever....

 

[AngelaMarie]

Srain,
I am very tired and in pain also. I have been having nightmares about being stuck in buildings with my family, trying to get away, not being able to find the exit, everywhere I turned there was another family member:confused:. Nightmares about people I knew in middle school. Very bizzare! However, I was thankful that I was able to get sleep this morning. I was also thankful that at least I was up today and sit in the garden for a while with my family. I am also thankful to be able to come here and get support when I am feeling alone or down.

I hope you know deep inside you will not be adrift forever. I hope you know inside that you will learn to overcome if you keep trying and keep telling the truth and sharing. You are not alone, my dear!:tup:

 

[intothelight]

(((AngelMarie))), (((Rain))),

I hope you both feel better.

Deb

 

[The Albatross]

I feel a mild headache (allergic pain).

I feel tired.

I feel that emotionally I'm avoiding setting a boundry with a friend, I avoided a call last night and let my machine pick up.

I am feeling concerned about my dog Bodi Boy's leg... looks like a trip to the vet is necessary which means $$$.

I am feeling quiet.

I think I will get myself into the kitchen and make white bean chili for my husband to have when he comes home.

I think that I will try to be a good "mommy" and give my Bodi some extra attention and distract him to leave that leg alone, and give him some more first aid so it won't get infected.

I think that if I allow myself to rest now, I will be able to be better when my husband comes home and he will be greeted with a smiling face and a hug.

 

[KP the nut]

(((Rain))) (((AngelaMarie))) - Hoping you both find peace.

Linking arms, sending strength and burning candles
KP

 

[blogitout]

Feeling like I do not want to go to a kid fest..the noise blaa blaa blaa u know why
Tired just thinking about it
I wanted to go yesterday so feeling confused and mad at my change in feelings
Feeling I will go any way for my kids and me
Last year when I went to this I was in a very bad place I am different now but that fear is there and I have to face it
feeling like taking an ativan but really want to face this
feeling like a shower with lots of lavender may help this feeling of frozenness and heavyness trying to keep me here on the couch.

 

[KP the nut]

Trying to stay calm.
Enjoying the sunshine.
Enjoying reading about essential oils, slight optimism as this may be the change of direction I need.
Scared of changing direction :confused:

 

[KP the nut]

feeling like a shower with lots of lavender may help this feeling of frozenness and heavyness trying to keep me here on the couch.

Try putting some lavender oil on a hankerchief to take with you. Or another oil. I carry lemon oil with me.

((HUGS))
KP

 

[Deleted member 6617]

Feeling rejected....Oh...that's because I was. Damn!
Feeling my back against the wall. I don't do well like that.

Feeling thankful for a sunny day ahead!