What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Sethe]

Sethe, this feeling of being watched all the time is a common symptom of PTSD. Different people have it to a higher degree or a lesser degree. I think of it as part of Hypervigilance. As for 'smacked upside the head' unless this is one of the things that was part of your abuse for which I would feel very sad for you; please excuse me if maybe I can joke with you a little? ....... ;) too much NCIS?

Thanks Mercy.

Actual smacking upside the head didn't happen when I was a kid, but there was a pervading fear of being 'destroyed' a lot.

Thanks for the validation. Sometimes I feel like I don't belong here and that my symptoms are not 'enough' to justify my 'complaints.'

 

[fairydust]

After a session with my psych aimed at identifying my self perception I feel like shit. I was able to name that I feel unworthy, a fraud and I feel tainted. I feel shitty because my intellect tells me that it is rediculous to feel like this but to feel any other way is so unimaginable that it terrifies me!

 

[Innordinate]

Okay today
maybe even inquisitive (if that can be a feeling)

 

[Philippa]

Mixed feelings. Confused, unsure about whether I over-reacted just before when someone addressed me in a way that made me feel offended, so I asked him to not do it? Tired, clean, warm.

 

[The Albatross]

I feel quiet today.
I feel an ache in my right jaw.
I feel sad to look back at the junk when it pops but I do it anyway and try to write about it.

I think it is okay to be quiet and sad to remember.
I think that I'll be okay and that other feelings will come to me eventually if I do the work.
I think that I realize today that I feel safer with my unpredictable husband than I do in the general population... just too many weirdos in my history.
I think that I love my pets and I'm glad I'm not alone today.

 

[Deleted member 6617]

Full of tears that I can't shed.
Fear of crying alone and loosing myself to the depression.
So very tired.
I feel like being held like a child and allowed to cry and grieve.
I feel lost and lonely.
Fear being alone. Confused
Feel like I am not making any sense at all.
Feel needy....hate feeling needy!
Feel like giving of myself to someone else to push my own pain aside.
Feel unable to do so....inadequate, overwhelmed.
Feel like if I don't get out of this darkness soon I will loose the fight and harm myself. Don't want to get to that point....fighting.

Feel grateful for time with a friend yesterday in the sunshine.
If I could just hold onto positive feelings I would be okay.
Darkness go away....PLEASE....I beg you!
Feel like I can't take this anymore!

 

[Innordinate]

exhausted

 

[goingonhope]

I feel quite pleased and quite tired, even clearminded, ...considering.

Accomplished a lot today, all around, and I look forward to tommorrow.

 

[Iam]

Thanks as I'm that supposed "idiot".

Definitely not an idiot Nicolette.........You're funny, smart, kind and strong ;o)

 

[gidge]

Sad that life has passed me by, while ive been stuck with grief. Loney and wanting a friend to share my thoughts with. Hopeful that tomorrow will be a better day and I will be able to see clearer which path to take.

 

[Anthropologicashewire]

tired of crying, scared and tired.

 

[Iam]

Very frustrated and hopeless.
Tired of fighting depression.
Angry that I have to constantly be on guard against the PTSD symptoms.
Tired of "living as if" with the hope that it will become reality again for me
Mourning the loss of my "old self".

I used to be so happy and bubbly. Always looking for and seeing the good. That person is gone now. I had hoped that I would be able to get back to that self......I am losing that hope.

My life is good, I have no reason to be depressed and yet I am. I have tried so damned hard to overcome these symptoms, to manage them and yet the depression just goes on and on.

Had an appt with my regular PCP today. He suggested that we up the dosage of Wellbutrin from the 1/2 dose of
150 mg to the full recommended dosage of 300 mg. I want to get OFF the meds, not take more! I know he is careful in prescribing meds and only does it if he feels it is really necessary, so I agreed to try it. I can see the the 150mg has helped. Maybe upping the dosage will get the depression down to a minimal level. So maybe I do have hope afterall. Why else would I be trying it?