What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Reclusive]

I'm feeling burnt out and hollow.
I'm feeling anxious and terrified.
I'm feeling alone. This is both good and bad.
I'm feeling pressured and I don't like it.
I'm tired. To my very bones I am tired.

edit to add:

You know what else? I'm extremely irritated, if not totally angry, that my dad thinks the healthiest thing for me to do is keep busy and he keeps sending me stuff to do for him as a result. Instead of being happily busy, I'm anxious and overwhelmed and I don't think he'll ever understand.

 

[Mina]

I'm a bit annoyed. Another forum I'm on (not related to PTSD) is having a discussion on treatment of PTSD among law enforcement. Two of us on the thread have PTSD. The other person is pointing fingers at his employer saying their failure to get him treatment cost him everything and now poor him, poor him. Well, guess what? Some of us didn't have anybody to get us treatment, and did the whole damned thing ourselves - without an employer or insurance company involved. Failure to take responsibility for yourself does not mean it's all someone else's fault.

The other irritating thing is that folks seem to thing that forcing someone to get help will make them progress. Bull. Shit. You can lead a horse to water, but you can't make him drink. Something I've learned in the last three years - in part thanks to this forum - is that people can be given all the help in the world, but unless they're willing to do the work, it's not gonna actually help.

Sorry...end rant.

 

[KP the nut]

I am feeling so gooooood.
A lovely evening with H and it is still not over. I actually said earlier that this was bliss. And before you think rude :eek:, it was just nice to relax in the garden watching the house martens, buzzard, and birds, drinking wine and totally chilling - Bliss

 

[amethist]

I know exactly what you mean KP.

Hubby's idea to go get fish and chips, bring them back and sit in the garden eating them, while watching the birds.

Bliss is the only word for it tonight. :)

 

[Sethe]

Right now I want to beat the shit out of a rock with my bare hands, then curl up into a ball and die. (this is not a call for help)

So, I suppose my feeling of the day would be 'frustrated.'

 

[KP the nut]

I know exactly what you mean KP.

Billy Joel sang a song. I can't remember the title but a couple of the lines were

'These are the times to remember,
Cos they will not last forever,
These are the times
And times are gonna change...

Sorry slightly pi**ed, cant remember all of it. BUT basically remember the good times.

Tonight was a memory to keep.

 

[amethist]

OOO KP you wicked women. :roflmao: Good for you girl.

Now go sleep it off, so you can do it all again tomorrow. ;)

 

[KP the nut]

Now go sleep it off, so you can do it all again tomorrow. ;)

And if the sun shines again I will :roflmao:

 

[Sethe]

Fearful.

INCREDIBLY fearful.

Wait, I mean TERRIFIED.

Feeling like I'm dying.

Bad feelings.

 

[jasmin]

Great gig in the sky is playing.. I've been listening to it since I was a child but it still makes me shake inside.

I feel angry with myself for acting like a victim. But trying also to forgive myself for it.. so I guess I'm alright.. I know I need to socialize tonight for a friends birthday but right now the thought of it is awful.. I wanna be alone as per usual. I feel repulsive and I don't know how to rectify it.

Sigh it will all be okay.

 

[amethist]

Damn annoyed, and thats putting it mildly.

Our selfish in considerate neighbour is having some work done on his house. not a problem with that you may say, no its not really.

BUT it is 7.30 am in the morning, and they are drilling opposite our bedroom window.

Luckily for him, hubby had a good night, but he is still slightly wound up. If this spoils the last few days progress, the Doberman comes out to play.

 

[KP the nut]

And if the sun shines again I will

OK the sun isn't out but it is warm. Maybe not cooking and eating in the garden, but definitely OK for an aperitif in the garden :D.

Today I feel contented, lots of things I would change with my life if I could, I can't so I will slowly learn to accept them.