What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Srain]

((((((((((Hugs to you all)))))))))))))

I am feeling less lost, less alone. I am sleeping a lot, it makes me wonder if I am finally catching up to this time of year when I usually sleep longer better as has been pattern for years or am I finally "letting go" of some of the crap I've been packing lately...

 

[Deleted member 6617]

I feel like all my efforts to better my life and to even participate in life are failures. Not in a good place and sick of being where I am emotionally. Yep, it is up to me to change it. Just can't seem to muster the courage, strength and fight.

 

[Joslyn]

What Are MY Feeling Today? I found some tme for myself early in the day. I doing some cognitie modifications. Later in the day could not keep it up, though. Fell into a depression. Tempered the feelings with painting. Ithelped. Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! My feelings early in the day were hopeful. I am starting a new direction, reached a plateau and after many months decded I have the strength to start a new journey with my healing. It felt good to talk it out and make a decision with plan. Can You Identify Yours? My perpetrator was up for parole on one his life sentences (he has three back to back). All that went on back in April. I felt re-victimized because its one of my worst fears is for him to be free on any level. Getting letters from the Parole Board doesnt help me anymore. In reality he will never be released with a minimum of 45 more years to serve. I was surprised I was re=victimized by it and thought I had worked beyond that. Took some months of taking it easy on myself, low pressure days, giving myself permission to be agoraphobic on a brand new level. Started using some new cognitive behavior stuff that freaked me out several years ago. Wasn't ready then, but am now and it works. Hmmmm.....Lots of physical pain, bedridden fromt he fibromyalgia. Slept then woke up with night terrors. Decided to research programs that might be around and found this site. No sleep tonight but trying to keep trudgin the path of healing.

 

[KP the nut]

I'm feeling as if my brain is scrambled. I'm finding it difficult to think, I feel as if I am moving/thinking in slow motion.

 

[soulofLC]

I can relate, KP. I always feel confused and foggy. And my sense of time is nill.

I woke up feeling negative and sad, like everything I am waking up to will always be the same. Brain fog, 0 visibility.

Tried laying in bed until I felt positive. Good way to stay in bed all day! New Year, please be a better one.

 

[Sandstone]

Feeling relieved that the family has gone home and it's quiet now. and feeling guilty because THESE ARE MY CHILDREN and I love them. but it's so nice when they go away and I can stop pretending

 

[Sethe]

Right now, I'm a little sad. I miss my bird B.

 

[Sazza]

I'm feeling disorientated today and not myself, getting lots of headaches and think my anxiety is rearing its head in
A more physical manner, also my mood is just flat. I really dislike new year eve that not helping.

 

[KP the nut]

I am feeling tearful. I've just given in to tears, feeling as if I can't cope anymore. So grateful for my loving H. It is so hard for him, he just wants to make me better but can't.

 

[Joslyn]

Today, the end of 2011, I am pleased with the progress I have made with the PTSD. I am allowing myself to be pampered by my loving husband while I sip coffee and chill out in this forum. He accepts he cannot fix me and is assuring me today. He is also happy to hear I found this forum!

With weekly support I got through some tough times this year and despite my agoraphbia I never really felt alone. It has probably been the most difficult year of my marriage and it brought up a lot of triggers and trust troubles. I am willing to believe in love and am trying to understand how, today.

Hopeful? Yeah that's it. I feel hopeful.

 

[LittleBear]

Good luck everyone. I'll just be glad to see 2013. Not going to do anything stupid to myself but the last few years especially the end of 2010 were about as close to hell as I ever want to be. But in my current life I've quit trying to get suckered into hopeful and will settle for simple survival.

 

[Joslyn]

Hello to everyone. Just popping in :cool: . I am happy to have found this site last night.

being the survivors that we all are, it's nice to hear how each person is handling a struggle or who shares a triumph. the smallest thing to someone else feels new and larger than life, at times.

Hope is not a word I used much for most of my life. I am surprised to say it today and to know what it feels like. To know I am a survivor of horrible tragedies. I have hope today only due to hindsight. I can look back and remember the work I have done with therapists and such and kind of gauge my progress over the years. Rough, tough, hard, painful and out of control is where I started. to have a wrinkle of hope today is a big deal. Just had to say it while I feel it.

And to meet many of you who, like me, are learning to shed a little light into my life is inspiring.

Have a great day!!