KP the nut
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I feel so tense, I keep realising I have my fist clenched and my jaw clamped.
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What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?
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fish out of water
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Slept some hours last night and felt better this morning, need more ... If there is a God. I NEED MORE SLEEP!!!!
SeekingSerenity
Diamond Member
There is a God... whatever He is called...
Sleep is great therapy.
Garlic is a great additive to any meal.:D
Sleep is great therapy.
Garlic is a great additive to any meal.:D
So much right now.
Fear, self-loathing, and hopelessness are what I think I'm feeling. Weekends are usually rough for me. I stay somewhere where my anxiety is always high, and I'm constantly being triggered. That's part one of the fear. The self-loathing also stems from that, I feel that I'm so worthless not being able to handle two days a week here, not being able to communicate with the other people here, and that I'm not dealing with my issues fast enough. I'm also feeling pathetic for holing myself in a room and hiding under the covers of the bed when I'm panicking.
The other half of all those feelings has to do with tomorrow... I have a date with someone. I was looking forward to it, but now I'm just focusing on all my flaws and justifying all the reasons he won't like me enough to want anything more to do with me. *sigh*
Fear, self-loathing, and hopelessness are what I think I'm feeling. Weekends are usually rough for me. I stay somewhere where my anxiety is always high, and I'm constantly being triggered. That's part one of the fear. The self-loathing also stems from that, I feel that I'm so worthless not being able to handle two days a week here, not being able to communicate with the other people here, and that I'm not dealing with my issues fast enough. I'm also feeling pathetic for holing myself in a room and hiding under the covers of the bed when I'm panicking.
The other half of all those feelings has to do with tomorrow... I have a date with someone. I was looking forward to it, but now I'm just focusing on all my flaws and justifying all the reasons he won't like me enough to want anything more to do with me. *sigh*
Queen Boudica
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(((((LiamM)))))
Exhausted. After last night's scare, I now have all 3 kids at home. My son is fine, happy and chatty. Made bircher muesli and eggs for breakfast.
Ex H phoned me up complaining about his back (that suddenly started playing up when my son was in the hospital so he could get some attention I suspect). He arrived here late afternoon doing the invalid act, but has finally taken them to the park for a little bit.
No rest for me this weekend, and the week is full on next week, plus I now have a whole load more medical appointments to try and get sorted.
No time to have a nervous break down then :(
Exhausted. After last night's scare, I now have all 3 kids at home. My son is fine, happy and chatty. Made bircher muesli and eggs for breakfast.
Ex H phoned me up complaining about his back (that suddenly started playing up when my son was in the hospital so he could get some attention I suspect). He arrived here late afternoon doing the invalid act, but has finally taken them to the park for a little bit.
No rest for me this weekend, and the week is full on next week, plus I now have a whole load more medical appointments to try and get sorted.
No time to have a nervous break down then :(
SeekingSerenity
Diamond Member
Woke up very early to speak to Beloved on the phone. Then went back to sleep for a few more hours, it was wonderful.
I'm feeling good, rested.
I feel at peace.
I feel hopeful and confident.
I KNOW all will be good.
I feel hungry... whats for lunch? :D
I'm feeling good, rested.
I feel at peace.
I feel hopeful and confident.
I KNOW all will be good.
I feel hungry... whats for lunch? :D
KP the nut
VIP Member
Steak sandwiches in KPs house :D
KP the nut
VIP Member
I feel relaxed today.
I feel grateful to the wonderful staff and members here who always care and have my back.
I feel proud that last night I turned the computer off by 7.30pm and spent the evening relaxing with H.
I feel proud that I slept without the dogs, OK the dreams were weird but I did sleep.
(((HUGS)))
I feel grateful to the wonderful staff and members here who always care and have my back.
I feel proud that last night I turned the computer off by 7.30pm and spent the evening relaxing with H.
I feel proud that I slept without the dogs, OK the dreams were weird but I did sleep.
(((HUGS)))
((((((((((Lizio))))))))))))((((((((((Loloma)))))))))))))((((((((((Liam))))))))(((((((Sazza))))))))
Woke with a sore throat, blech. More sad news last night of family passing, my husband seems to take it in as "this is life" and I stumble into heartbreak, like walking on glass shards. :cry: How can two people react so differently?
Had a really good day yesterday :) - how great is that! AND my Hunny has tickets to an event for us in April, I'm sooo excited, we try to do something each year that is awesome to us and this one rocks! We will be up in the nosebleed seats and probably won't be able to see a thing but hey! we will be there :tup:
Woke with a sore throat, blech. More sad news last night of family passing, my husband seems to take it in as "this is life" and I stumble into heartbreak, like walking on glass shards. :cry: How can two people react so differently?
Had a really good day yesterday :) - how great is that! AND my Hunny has tickets to an event for us in April, I'm sooo excited, we try to do something each year that is awesome to us and this one rocks! We will be up in the nosebleed seats and probably won't be able to see a thing but hey! we will be there :tup:
I feel so ill today, i am going back to bed my mood is on the floor and i just feel in constant state of dissociation as i can't handle everything right now. I just want to curl up and never have face anyone again.
Hugs to all, be back around soon when feeling better but for now the dark hole is getting deeper.
Hugs to all, be back around soon when feeling better but for now the dark hole is getting deeper.
intothelight
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Getting ready for the trip today. Very excited, but trying to pace myself. Housework will wait till I get back. Breakfast, shower, feed dogs, feed horses, hit the road!!! (Well the horse part my H has to help with, I just pet them. :))
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