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What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

I don't know. I just don't know how to handle everything.

Major issues: just came back from my visit with my children. I love them so much and miss them desperately. Last night started having flashbacks of a memory I wasnt even aware of. This whole morning I couldn't move at all for around 4-5 hours, was dissociating badly and having these sudden jolting flashbacks. Missed my T appointment and didnt go to the unemployment office. Which I need to do desperately because I am getting more and more in debt, but my account is negative, and I'm not eating....:(

Sorry for venting...ahhhh. I'm not used to this idea of PTSD but can't stop thinking about it either.
 
I feel so disappointed in myself, and like a freak. I managed ptsd (symptoms) for nearly a lifetime, I managed to survive (with help) lousy circumstances the last few years. But it was me falling apart in 2008 that's led to how I am now.
 
I felt ugly earlier, and now I feel both sensitive, fragile, outraged at discovering that the doona I just picked up from the dry cleaners was cleaned with something really toxic, and I had to put it back in it's bag and place it outside...the smell made me feel instantly sick, made my eyes irritated, and I immediately went to the webpage to complain and warn other customers of their unethical treatments.

I feel a bit better now for having smudged some sage around my room, but it was interesting how immediate my body reacted, and how strong the reaction was. When I think about it, those people who work there must be REALLY really sick from having to breathe in all that poison day after day. It was really disgusting, and I still feel a bit woozy and ill from the smell.

I'm a bit bummed out that I need to chuck it and buy a new one, but it was no hard decision to make...that thing must GO!:sick:

For anyone living in Melbourne, in the Thornbury area, I would say that it is up to you whether you go there or not, but I would certainly recommend that you find somewhere else if you value your health and well being! The place is called Dante's Dry Cleaner's just on High street, near Clarendon and Normanby streets.
 
Damn...I was sooo looking forward to snuggling up under my doona again and enjoying my new doona cover that took me absolutely AGES to pay off:laugh:...but looks like I will have to wait a little longer...*grumble, grumble*

This is the *sigh* of resignation and acceptance.
 
Firstly, sorry I haven't been around for a while. Sending (((((Hugs))))) to all.

There is no other way to put this, I feel like shit! and have been feeling that way since last week. Went to my gf's house on Sunday and spent the night. Woke in the morning with my heart raising, face as red as a beetroot, followed by a massive angina attack. Next thing the room was spinning and I was as white as a sheet. I did recover after about twenty minutes and two squirts of nitro.

Too much stress, packing on my own as boxes will be picked up for shipping on the 19th and trying to sell all my stuff and clean out the house by the 25th April. I am such a stupid creature, why do I get myself into so much strife. What worries me is that I might drop dead before it's all done. :eek:
 
I just realised last night that I don't know how to be happy and never really have been apart from fleeting moments. No wonder I am on my own, and my ex's move on to the next one.

It really must be me, I am so angry at myself for my own stupidity.
 

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