What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Tinyflame]

I miss people who have died, so many within this time of year. I thought time would make it better- and it did, until there were more losses and then they all seemed to get more acute.
I wish I could hear 'words' that would make me feel better. I try to be happy for them but I still feel sad, no doubt about it. Drained. :(

 

[CraftyCath]

My leg is much better today and I'm walking on it again.

I've been fighting with depression this last week and have realised that I've run out of meds so I will have to order them.

 

[KP the nut]

I'm feeling proud that I have accomplished most of what I needed to do today. I still have the dogs to walk, which I will do once I have finished my coffee.

Apart form feeling financially poor (as are most here), I feel upbeat. We have kept the wolf from the door for another month and I feel good about that.

(((HUGS))) to those who like and need a hug.

 

[Deleted member 6617]

Had a great weekend, so don't understand why I am feeling so out of sorts today. Emotionally and physically feeling exhausted. Pain persists and feeling impatient for the doctor to get back to me. Anxiety just under the surface making me feel like a time bomb. Fear of upcoming possible surgery. Feel like I am loosing the battle today, just too tired to fight.

 

[Jen93]

I'm feeling really really down and desperate. I feel alone. I feel silenced. I feel pathetic.

I feel like nothing is going to get better.

I feel like people are TRYING to push me down and control me, and I can't fight with them anymore. I give up. If they wanted me so depressed that I think of suicide they got their wish.

I feel completely and utterly alone. The people who are supposed to care don't give a shit and they won't let me get better without them being there.

I feel like I'm being abused... I'm hurt and sad and just tired.

I'm feeling angry- I have to fight, I have to keep fighting. This is my LIFE that's being messed around with. I'll fight for it if I have to- I won't let them win.

 

[Red Feather]

I feel so guilty right now. I feel guilty for being so numb. I feel guilty for not knowing how I really feel about things.

 

[Tinyflame]

I'm tired of getting screamed at. Being the target of semi-constant rage or anger is exhausting and heart-destroying.
Sick of raging voice, nasty words, threats, slamming doors. So much for 'home' as a place of refuge. I'm not sure what 'home' is, any more.

At the very least, it's a lousy way to live. As my sponsor would say, 'Unfortunate way to live. But concentrate on the parts that are fortunate'.
That's difficult, at times like this. And triggering.

They are the one that have loaned ('gave it', but that will change) me this computer, so likely I'll be off-line soon, I guess.
For the life of me, can't figure a way to get out of this environment, so that is disheartening and feels hopeless. Beyond the SI triggering, which I recognize for what it is.

I guess I ask myself, why am I possibly struggling this hard, against the ptsd, the SI, etc, just to live like this.
I don't have anything to live for, really. That doesn't change during the more 'fortunate' times. That makes me feel tired.

 

[Chincho]

I feel really tired.
I feel useless and sad.
I feel very frustrated and angry that I can't express myself accurately in English.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I feel ok. Kinda blah but ok. Better than feeling bad I think, makes me see blah in a whole new light. lol!!:)

 

[SeekingSerenity]

Pain. Absolute and complete agony.

She has just no idea how much she hurts me.

A knife between my ribs, a glowing ember in my eye, flames on my skin would hurt less.

I can't do this anymore. :cry: I'm done.

 

[goingonhope]

I am feeling withdrawn, cautious, scared, worried, upset, frustrated, wishful and courageous. Plus, very very tired.

 

[ericaboo]

Guilt-ridden pond scum, idiotic, stuck, scared