I'm feeling a bit sapped of energy right now. Physically tired. Ready for bed I think.
On an emotional level, there is a sense of terror, but maybe that was because I watched american psycho earlier. Probably not the best choice now come to think of it??
Feeling a bit depressed, possibly from the weather though? It's been really cold and rainy here. I'm also a bit pissed off at a friend who never answers my messages, until about 2 weeks later, and acts like he 'just saw it now'. He always does that and it makes me feel ignored and unimportant to him. I am not one of his priorities, and that's fine, but it still makes me feel like he doesn't take the time to even get back to me with a basic reply, even to tell me he doesn't have much time to chat.
I met someone at work last night who I got along with and I'm thinking of asking him out to dinner next time he comes in...? Curious about that, but it also might be where the terror is stemming from. I found myself talking myself out of it this afternoon while I was telling a friend about him.
It's been years since I was in a relationship with anybody, and the last one took a VERY long time to get over. I've kinda been on a no relationship at all kick...but I'm starting to open up to wanting to receive love again...which is scary.