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What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

Don't be angry with yourself for being you AKJ, you were meant to be you, not someone else, and you are a wonderful you!

I have not be so depressed today. I went out with my H to a local garden centre and had tea and sones, then I called at my sisters.

My doctor thinks that pain in my side is a kidney infection. It hurts like hell and I've been so tired and head achy with it. She has sent a sample off and put me on antibiotics so it is just a matter of riding it out.
 
OMG!!! I feel thankful to have gotten through my luncheon without tearing my hair out and EXTREMELY grateful for my husband being there to literally remind me to let "it go" when my mother snatched the check out of the waiter's hand while my husband was reaching for it :sour:. Then she refused to allow us to get the tip, holy crap was I about to lose it!!:mask:

We had discussed this before hand and I had told her that we would pick up the check this time since we had not been able to get over for Mother's Day. She and I have epic battles over the check that use to amusing but have gotten to seriously contentious leading me to have numerous conversations with her due to her mini-fits in public and ridiculous displays of "needing to do this" for me, then turning around and complaining about not having enough money to pay bills, :meh:.... ......... .............. ..................

Then...yes, more...I come to find out that the entire time sitting there she was pissed off at our waiter because when we first came in she over-heard him bitching that they seated us early in his station, hence the reason she wanted to under-tip him! Pfffffftttttttt, why not handle it at the beginning of service and request another service fortheloveofcryinginthelake??!!?? but oh no, let's sit ALL through lunch and half listen to everyone pretending to have a good time but bitch about the whole thing at the end of it and all the way home!!!

I'm grateful I was oblivious to her and her mini-snit with the waiter, I'm grateful I thought far enough ahead to ask my husband to go with me, I'm relieved it is over and that I didn't go off on her for being the way she is and will always be. She loves her drama and I can't change that.
 
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I think you handled it pretty well Rain. It is so difficult when someone who is so much older (especially a parent) can be so childish and controlling.

Not reacting (or showing her how you feel) is probably the best way to deal with her. You can't please her whatever you do so as long as you are honest with yourself and maintain your integrity you should be OK. Trust yourself, it's never easy with family and you did the right thing taking your H with you, it is what I would do.

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((((((((((((((Cath))))))))))))) I appreciate your wise words!

I feel relieved that I got through yesterday. Had unrelenting night terrors but got up early enough to take both puppy girls out for a nice walk under the moon. Sunday mornings are always quiet and calm out.

Feeling a bit more at peace. Self care today is a must.
 
Feeling a bit more rested. Took yesterday Off and slept and rested a lot.

Feeling apprehension for today. Already been asked to drive someone somewhere and I really just don't want to. I want to do nothing. I want to give my ribs a chance to feel better. It hurts to drive. I want to be totally selfish and take care of me. I am feeling guilty for that so will probably cave in and do the driving. Don't want to feel resentful for doing so. UHG....I hate this. Why is it so hard to just take care of me for one weekend.
 

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