What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[CraftyCath]

I'm proud of myself today. I went to my art group and did an encaustic (hot wax) art demonstration. It went down really well and everyone was so nice.

I'm also stressed because H found a letter from his sister that she sent a couple of years ago. I had asked why her husband treated me unkindly saying things like: 'Why do you drop your H's? Why don't your clothes match? Don't you talk a lot? Isn't it time you went?' According to my sister-in-law all this was just a joke! It is all my fault as I have 'problems with people' and only talk about myself.'

Re-reading it has upset me because I try so hard with people, am genuinely interested in them and talk too much when I am nervous. I'm very accepting and non-judgemental as most here will know. Her husband has had a go at my husband and some friends of ours but no one other than me has stood up to him and now she says she has 'left our relationship to God,' (what a cop out!), and she is waiting for me to apologise.

Not going to happen!:mad: wish I hadn't read it. :( I'm glad I saw KP before I read the letter as it might have reacted worse. And a special card from Germany from Prime_no really made my day! Thanks sweetie! x

 

[Charmedone]

Feel at braking point :'(, like been hanging by my fingertips and finally slipped off cliff. Feels like I'm falling and spinning into a huge black hole :( just want my life to be over :(

 

[CraftyCath]

((((((((((Charmedone))))))))))

 

[Britt.f7]

Crafty Cath, my sister usually says it is my problem when it is something she has done or said. I'm the one who is taking it wrong. Whatever. Then there is my sister in law who makes snide little comments to me when no one is near. So, naturally, I avoid anything that involves her(glad she moved far away). When she lived closer I would tell my husband, but he didn't "hear" it and won't say anything to her. I think she gets away to being a, um, not nice person, because "that's just her". One Christmas day I ended up in the emergency room due to my heart. Even though she knew this, she called and left a message asking when we were going to be there(at my inlaws) that they were waiting. I definitely do not like her, but try to remain cordial. Try not to let your relatives get to you. I'll try to take the same advice.

Charmedone, I'm sorry you are feeling so badly. Wish there was something I could do. Hugs.

 

[CraftyCath]

Thanks Britt.

She lives in Italy so I don't see her often. She has e-mailed me pretending nothing has happened. H and I can't do anything right by her and she tells us off as if we are children. I am no longer in contact with her as I couldn't deal with the negative comments when I was at my worse last year. Her letter just brought it all back.:( I'm treated like the black sheep by my H's family.

They say you can choose your friends but not your family. :rolleyes: I will, like you, try not to let it get to me. After all, what goes around comes around and those who treat people badly can never be truly happy.

Hugs Britt. :hug:

 

[ms spock]

Oh my stomach is in a terrible way. I am so anxious. I just want to crawl back in to bed and not deal with life at all.

I made a mistake on Monday afternoon and now I find that mistake will be compounded by other factors that I was unaware of and I feel sick with stress. I will go off to classes today, but I don't want to and I just want to hide at home. I feel ashamed and humiliated.

 

[p-no]

Sick, physically down, sad about me not being able to do anything against being mistreated by the neighbor, exhausted, tired, sad because I do not have any furniture yet (but one armchair) in my new apartment, disappointed by the future tenant who promised to pay for the furniture they take over from me and haven't kept the promise so I have to ask my dad for help (he always helps and this time it bugs me that I need to ask). Melancholic -- I'm watching Titanic and they just kissed with all the beautiful music in the background. I want a partner!

 

[SweetPeaandSunBird]

Prime-no, it does so suck to have to ask for money help from friends or family. Especially when someone else fails to pay on something that isn't your fault.
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I'm relieved and a bit celebratory because I got through the work day and when I woke up I wondered, "How the hell am I going to do this (work)?" But, I did and reminded myself: "I ain't lookin' for perfection, just looking for charmingly passable."
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Sad for folks having a tough go-of-it today, so (((hugs of steadfast hope and smiles)))

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am really struggling today. I am having such a hard time. The movies I got proved to be boring. My husband had a bad fall today and cut his toe. He was out in the yard and doing yardwork. He is resting now. I will be glad when I go to bed. I sure hope tommorow is a better day. I just cannot seem to perk up.

I hate days like today. I sure cannot wait until I feel better.

 

[ms spock]

I feel stupid and sick. I could have looked after my own life instead of looking after other people. But no I feel like an idiot.

Okay this feels like the end of the world. But I did tell my psychriatrist my mistake and I told B. So it is a mistake people make often and I stuffed up.

I feel crappy.

Off to classes.

I will improve. I am improving. Today doesn't feel like it.

 

[KP the nut]

(((Cath)))

They say you can choose your friends but not your family.

So have friends as family and family as a a necessary evil - do you want Max to sort them out :blackeye:.

Don't you talk a lot?

OMG, just as well she wasn't with us on Tuesday, both of us were well away ;):D.

I'm feeling tired and sore now. I think painkillers and then bed.

I'm pleased I finished my on-line grocery order, it will be delivered tomorrow afternoon.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Good for you KP.:hug: