What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Ayasha]

I really don't know right now. Feeling and acknowledging my emotions is something my counselor has been trying to work with me. I've shut myself off from my own feelings that I'm really not sure what I feel (other than tired, I didn't sleep well)Any suggestions?

 

[GreenFrog2]

(((Ayasha)))
I started by trying just one word. alone, sad, uncertain...... give it a go!

 

[Ayasha]

Scared

 

[GreenFrog2]

(((Ayesha)))) and well done :) Lots of us are scared - being on here helps me to cope with it

 

[AzureMind]

I'm not very good at distinguishing my own emotions, but I'll try to give this a serious effort.

I feel...

-I feel lost and unknown to myself; ever a stranger in a life that I don't feel I belong in.
-Like an alien distant and isolated from other people in my immediate family, society, and the world at large.
-Like I'm a ghost/phantom living on the outside looking in on my life as it happens.
-Introspectively looking for an answer that will pull my identity together, and make everything 'clearer'.
-Completely depleted of energy as usual wondering if I'll have the energy necessary to make it through another day.
-Like I have to hold my pain in (the bloody mess that it is) and under NO circumstances let NO ONE see it.
-In misery and loneliness...
-Wondering what is the point of this life that I've been living, and why I should continue with it. I've felt for so long that I was brought into life only to feel nothing but abuse, neglect, isolation, anger, and callousness from other people. Why are some people given positive lives, and homes, and yet others must FIGHT for their very right to EXIST when that is a basic right EVERY human being has?
-Bitter with anger for not having anyone who understands the complexity of the situation I'm now in, and having to go it alone as people struggle to live life in regularity and STILL complain.

-Like nothing has any meaning anymore; like there's no significance in the little things in life...everything feels so distant and irrelevant as I TRY to fight for some semblance of meaning in the chaos of random life events.

-In a state of wonder and confusion about where my life is taking me; who is this man I'm becoming? I'm amazed, confused, inspired, anxious all at the same time about this new life that's growing in me.

-Caught between the clouds of incoherent thoughts, and coherent, clear ones.

 

[Traumagirl]

Azuremind. I really appreciate the way you articulated your feelings. There were so many comments that I can relate to.

((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))))))

I feel happy and nervous this morning. My temporary full-time job (I'm usually part-time) is going to continue until the end of the year. This temp job is teaching middle school and I really love it. I'm just a little nervous that my health won't hold up. I'm more excited really.

 

[Changing4Best]

Anxious to get going. It is my best friend's birthday and we are having a party, just the two of us. I cannot wait! I even work up at 3AM because I was upset about something (unrelated) but also because I am excited.

 

[intothelight]

Very, very fragile. Trying not to break emotionally, mentally or physically. My heart and soul hurt more than my body right now.

 

[Philippa]

Like I've accomplished some things today. I got the mental health review from the doctors today, which means I can finally get myself off to the therapist. I made an appointment with her finally, and that is all sorted.

It was interesting because I also was able to have closure with the woman who has been my counselor for the last year on a casual basis (she was a student and I volunteered as part of her placement programme), so it feels like it has all naturally evolved to this point today where old relationships came to an end and new ones are about to begin...which feels...right.

Apart from this though, I also feel a bit scared at hearing "you deserve to get stomped on" and "you deserve to get used" in my head today at different times??:confused: Not sure where that's all stemming from, but it's a little scary??

I also feel a little sad today, and am grieving, as well as annoyed at my compulsiveness and seeming addiction to going back and forth from facebook to this place, and email, and back again...ALL DAY!

I got some stuff done, so it wasn't totally unproductive, but it's making me feel a bit desperate that I keep going back and forth to the same websites all day long. I'm sure I have better things to do. I think I'm trying to distract myself still from feeling the sadness I'm feeling?

 

[IndigoButterfly]

Exhausted, but hopeful. Unsure of the future, but willing to fight.

 

[Slynn]

Tired, overwhelmed, frustrated and sad. But also hopeful, since I managed to get myself a counselling session for next week, which will hopefully lead to regular sessions.

 

[KP the nut]

I'm feeling slightly stupid, very clumsy and sore. Hurrying downstairs to answer the door to the postman, I mis-judged the step and fell down the stairs.

I have/had a busy day planned including doing a community car journey. Luckily another driver is able to take the lady. I need to do a little housework ahead of my candle party tonight.

I've taken some strong painkillers and hopefully when they kick in I can have a shower.