What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Let It Be]

I'm feeling torn. I live in a small town, thus I never know if I'm going to run into someone I know. I'm being torn again by the dynamics of what to do, especially on days, when I'm not up to chatting, etc.

It's like this one person was so glad to see me, she worked at the hospital where I did, but I'm wondering why, I wasn't thrilled to see her. I even saw someone that I would call to talk over some my stuff. I haven't called her in some time, and she hasn't called me either so when I saw her today, I avoided her.

All I know, I was so glad to be back home. As the sign said at one store, only 18 more days until Christmas!!

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Only eighteen more days? This month is just flying by. I cannot believe how fast time is going by.

 

[Trembling]

Thank you so much for a hug I need right now.......But I will not keep it for myself but hand it over to anyone who wants a strong hug from Gizmo!

 

[Britt.f7]

I am feeling accomplished and proud of myself. :shy: I managed to get out to pick up two packages and to do large grocery shopping. Pretty big deal since I haven't been able to leave my house to do so in over 3 months. I can't wait til my boys get home and see a filled fridge and cupboards. They go straight to both when they get home! :)

 

[Loveneverfails]

I feel oddly sleepy, like I got no sleep last night even though I got a solid 8 hours.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I must be sad because I'm crying. I feel alone. I feel anger and confusion and I don't know what else. My hands are a little shaky. I feel overwhelmed.. I think. I'm struggling. I'm having such a hard moment. I'm scared of how heavy this feels right now. I want to stuff it all back down and try to forget again.

 

[ms spock]

I fell into my abandonment and exclusion stuff and not being wanted stuff today by being invited out by some friends connected to some friends that I no longer see. I felt bad and cried and then I decided to go, which is good. I cried a lot and I feel relieved from crying.

 

[Sedd]

I feel so uneasy... I want to live and be free, yet I have a massive "protection" that isolation is safer.
The protection creates what I will be hated for,everyone will hate me, so safer alone, cant touch me. ( A stuck emotion from childhood) My own crazy protection :(

 

[Cufflinks]

Its first thing in the morning on Saturday and am feeling
anxious
worried
nervous
upset
sad

Christmas kicks off for the kids today with their school Christmas fair. They'll be excited and things will definitely get out of hand at some stage. I have to remain calm, not get cross, try to understand. I won't be able to get them under control by anything else than talking calmly. Not easy with a zero flashpoint.
I'm upset because this will be the last Christmas as a family and that makes me incredibly sad.
I can't help feeling that today is going to be too much to bear. Watching my wife be happy when she also knows this is the last time we'll be doing it together. The thought of it is bringing me to tears.

 

[ms spock]

I feel so uneasy... I want to live and be free, yet I have a massive "protection" that isolation is safer.
The protection creates what I will be hated for,everyone will hate me, so safer alone, cant touch me. ( A stuck emotion from childhood) My own crazy protection :(

Tis not crazy at all Sedd.

 

[ms spock]

I jumped on a train and went up to Sydney to see some friends. I feel relieved that I did this. I feel washed out by the crying that I did today.

 

[KP the nut]

I feel happy and content.

My youngest daughter arrived for the weekend last night and oh my, it is so good to see her. I haven't seen her since August, so it means the world to me. We had a lovely night last night just talking and catching up.

I am alone in the house now, not even the dogs which is a little odd but the total quiet feels a nice quiet. H and daughter heve taken the dogs for a long walk, too far for me I'm afraid. I do love the fact that they have quality time together though. H is long walks and rock concerts, I'm home loving stuff and craft fairs. I feel so proud that we have such good relationships with both girls.

I am looking forward to tonight. H has his works Christmas party - no partners. Daughter and I have planned a take-a-way, sparkling wine to make Kir Royales, chocolates and a movie - bliss.

(((HUGS))) to everyone in need of a hug.