What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Traumagirl]

I feel totally exhausted. After dealing with our big concert Wednesday and my husband being in the hospital with cancer surgery, I'm tapped out. I will spend the day with him today, so that will make me feel better.

I did have a PTSD thing last night. My father was talking about my brother and how he used to stand up to my mother and how good that worked for him. I was not allowed to stand up to my mother, so I took it as the abuse was my fault because I could not "handle" her the same way my brother did. I know that's not the way he meant it, but I asked him not to say anything like that again. Borderline mothers assign roles to children and when they step out of their role, all hell breaks loose. He was supposed to stand up to her, and I was not. There was no way around it. I know I am just being sensitive, but it still made me mad.

 

[Traumagirl]

((((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))

 

[Britt.f7]

I know I am just being sensitive

First, you are not being sensitive. It touched a chord. Your response was legitimate.

Borderline mothers assign roles to children and when they step out of their role, all hell breaks loose.

This is how it was with my sister and I. I was the one to keep quiet. I remember getting in trouble once because I did not fight back, then in trouble for slamming a door and showing my anger. It was a no win situation. My sister was allowed to fight back. Even she knew it. I do believe some mother's assign roles to different children. I've fought hard not to do that with my children. I wouldn't even allow my mother to do the same. Funny I could protect my children but more difficult to defend me.

Hugs back at you Traumagirl. You deserve them!

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am feeling alittle better. I have to go food shopping today, we ran out of milk. OOPS:eek: I did not mean to.

 

[Deleted member 6617]

Full of fear for my friend. Full of fear of losing her. Coming out in anger and frustration when all I really want to do is hold onto to her and give her strength. Feeling a sense of panic that keeps trying to consume me. Fighting it back the best I can.

 

[goingonhope]

I don't know or care how I felt earlier today. Right now I feel sick to my stomach, very tense and as if on a swing-set dizzy and swinging back from one emotion to another.

Sadness, heartbroken, fear, confusion and anger.

 

[Changing4Best]

I feel awful. I used to describe this feeling as "I feel like I've been run over by a Mac truck!" (though I'm sure that is a SLIGHT exaggeration! My head feels fuzzy inside, my eyes are drooping... I feel listless and overtired, I don't feel like going out at all. Thank God I don't have to. I wish there were something I could do to feel better. However, I know from past experience that this will pass when it passes and not until (and however long that will be, it will be).

 

[Spiderallis]

I feel like I'm vibrating inside, probably from stress and knowing that if I flip out and break down it'll only make things worse. Three more days, after Monday morning I can deal with feeling however I feel. Until then there's autopilot lots of things to get done.

 

[Tinyflame]

(((((Hugs))))) and peace and strength to All who need them. :hug:

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am feeling the most normal I have felt in a long time. I got things done today. I am waiting on a call from my husbands p doc for a prescription for him. I have been accomplishing things today. I feel so good compared to what I have been feeling.

 

[ms spock]

I am still feeling sensitive and a bit sick in my stomach today. But better than yesterday.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am feeling so much better. I will make it. Mabe the rough patch is over for awhile. I got alot accomplished today. I also cleaned off my microwave and my stovetop. I will be exercising every day too. I can still touch my toes. I think the exercise is helping me.