What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[DharmaGirl]

Ugh, its 3 am here and I have to get up at 5am for my test/procedure. Nothing to eat or drink. I have not slept tonight although I did get a nap today. I might take the girls for a walk at 0430, they will like that. I think I will try one more time to get to sleep, then I will give up.

 

[Hashi]

Apologies again to lovers of the holiday season, but I'm so relieved to see the red-coated back of Santa heading home to the North Pole. I'm glad that new year and the whole holidays are over, so the world around me can get back to normal and stop being so hyped up and disrupted.

It feels strange because I lost my job towards the end of last year, and I'm very aware of not returning to work today. I actually had to set my alarm and leave the house for a hospital appointment, so I was getting up and going out, but not to work like other people. In many ways I'm glad not to be working at the moment. I need the break. But work is a big part of my identity and I'm feeling a lack of belonging.

 

[Hashi]

Ugh, its 3 am here and I have to get up at 5am for my test/procedure. Nothing to eat or drink.

I just had a test that I had to fast for since yesterday. I'm glad it's over now and I've had something to eat and drink. I'm sorry you've been without sleep as well. I hope it goes OK.

 

[Abstract]

I cannot stand being this size. I miss being light and feeling invisible. It makes me cry.

But those feelings are not really about your weight Faerie. They are displaced and feel like they are about your size. And you were not invisible then. If anything it was likely to draw attention. So maybe look at what is really making you cry.

 

[Abstract]

In many ways I'm glad not to be working at the moment. I need the break. But work is a big part of my identity and I'm feeling a lack of belonging.

I understand this. It is likely to be very good for you in certain ways. I have found that anyway. But I was shocked to find out how much of my identity and self esteem was tied up in work in certain ways. It was very good to challenge that as it made me grow a lot and develop my real sense of self but it was very hard. I am sorry you lost your job too. That is never easy.

 

[MouseWedger]

I feel angry, trapped. Alone. I feel ... empty.

 

[Hashi]

I was shocked to find out how much of my identity and self esteem was tied up in work in certain ways. It was very good to challenge that as it made me grow a lot and develop my real sense of self but it was very hard.

Abstract, thank you for understanding. You are very wise and very right.

Can't help sighing at yet another challenge. I think the universe must like me a lot to give me all these opportunities to grow and get stronger. ;)

 

[DharmaGirl]

Hugs to Hashi and Mouse and everyone else.

 

[ms spock]

Relief from weeping.

 

[NarcSis]

Hurt and alone.

 

[Britt.f7]

I can ask her if it's available at standard bookstores or if it needs to be ordered or what though.

That would be great. I never did the workbook to a Courage to Heal but I did read the book. It helped, but I think something like you are doing might help too. I don't see a new therapist(mine is out due to medical), and the time's are tough. Thank you for at least looking into it. It might be something she put together.

But I was shocked to find out how much of my identity and self esteem was tied up in work in certain ways.

I found that out when I no longer could work. It's been about 7 years now and I still don't know what to do with myself on a daily basis. I use to be a workaholic. I really miss it. But my kids prefer a mom who is awake and able to do stuff with them more often then when I was working. Obviously, still have my limitations. But I'm better physically not working.

I think the universe must like me a lot to give me all these opportunities to grow and get stronger.

Is that what it is? Because the universe has given me a lot to work with but I didn't know it was because it liked me so much. I think I'd like it if the universe liked me a little less! ;):laugh:

 

[Tanishq]

I am feeling different. Not sure to call it relaxed or being contented. lol...