What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Sailorgal]

(((Monster)))

I wish you strength and healing for your surgery tomorrow. Please don't overwhelm yourself. Make sure they take good care of you but don't freak out.

I would bring balloons and flowers if I could. :(

 

[Britt.f7]

She wouldn't have spoken to you if she couldn't depend on you.

Never thought of it that way. It gives me a better perspective. Thank you for your insight. Much needed.

 

[Mercy]

numb, frustrated. I would really rather like being alone and on my own. It is exhausting to always check in on myself to see if I can be an appropriate wife and mother. I usually fail. I find that too many demands at once can make me collapse inside. ..All shell and noone home.

 

[Changing4Best]

Anxiety, because my niece, who is a control freak, tried to convince me I should give up my dog and move into a nursing facility. I think she just does not want to have to worry about me, which she does, but not enough to do anything to really help me. She even suggested a county facility, does she have ANY idea what kind of life I would lead in there??? NO! How could she suggest such a thing!!!

 

[Mercy]

Shame on her!

 

[GreenFrog2]

My brain feels like scrambled egg

So does mine - I was doing really well but now I have soooo much on my plate with family stuff resurfacing that I feel as though I am breaking.

I am doing my self-care things (walking, meditating, problem solving, coming here) but my bucket is over flowing - flooding really. As terrified and confused.

At doctor's yesterday I did OK - but I think that she does not understand how horrific I feel - she just sees the good things that I am doing and assumes that all is well. We talked about medication, but I am really apprehensive about this as so many people have issues with it - and anti-depressants did not work for me in the past. Also find the thought of having lots of medications in the house pretty scary as I often have SI episodes and really don't want the temptation......

 

[Philippa]

HUNGRY!:cool:

 

[Hashi]

I'm feeling raw. Getting ready to do more trauma work in therapy. Today was a final session of setting up safety around that before we begin (the timing's my choice). On the way home, I went through every emotion. It's almost impossible to talk about things that happened, at the depth I need to, yet I'm going to. I know I will, but I don't know how.

I was wondering who I'm going to be afterwards. I've got no image of that at all.

My therapist talked about a releasing technique we could do, so that I know about it in case I decide at any point I want to try it. At the time she talked about it, I was wary. Thinking about it on the way home, I couldn't stop crying. I want to be free of this.

I feel like a snail without its shell.

 

[GreenFrog2]

(((Hashi)))

 

[Philippa]

I feel really crappy today, very emotional and menstrual as anything. I want to burst into tears any minute now, but it won't come. Crampy, hungry, but can't eat. Sad and tortured about not having contact with my parents right now, and guilty for not calling them for xmas and new years, but also glad I was with friends and people who feel like my real family. Confused about some stuff, and feeling a bit angsty, but mainly from it being that time of the month for me. Down and low in spirits.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

Defeated. Depressed. Angry. Disappointed. Cautiously hopeful. Willing. Also, I hate ptsd. And triggers.

 

[GreenFrog2]

Giving up on the hope of getting better. It is so hard to do this alone. What choice to I have? Going through the motions of a normal person is just killing me - I need to rest, but can't. So tired and frightened of myself and where I am at as usual.