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What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

I feel numb like I'm not in my body somewhat. I haven't felt this in a long time and don't know what triggered it. Or remember how to snap out of it other than grounding stuff I haven't done in ages. I hope I can remember how to ground me.
 
I am filled with doubt today. I only went out of the house once-to go get sketch pencils. I started sketching recently. It felt good. I have also been tired from lack of sleep. My sister called me psycho last night, she has PTSD too, but she doesn't get help and is in denial. I got mad at myself because I reacted to it, but I changed the course of it by telling her goodnight and I love you in a text. The stuff we have to do in order to heal is what others do without thinking at all. It sucks. Is there such thing as spending too much time trying to heal?
 
I'm in a daze, trance-like obsession and have been most of this day and week.

Outside of this there has been a few nice highlights - brief periods such as cleaning up the yard of sticks and doing some burning of these, watching an interesting musical with my daughter, being treated to some quality Chinese food and getting out to walk our dog along with my daughter.

Otherwise, I'm feeling sad and angry, as well as, isolated and powerless.
 
:hug: Hope. x

I'm back after a short absence.

My aunty and Cousin came over from the US and it was lovely to spend time with them. Then we started to decorate the living room. :eek::eek::eek: It took 4 days to get the old paper off, then the plaster came off, then I couldn't get the varnish off the old fire surround, then we had to learn how to remove a radiator, then my poor H had to block up a big hole in the wall, then I messed up the fireplace with the new varnish but....

It now look beautiful! All we need to do is box in a few pipes and buy new curtains. We have a new floor down and new sofas. I keep walking in thinking it isn't my house and it is too posh for me!! :D

But then my poor Budgerigar Robbie had a serious fall which has left her with limited mobility. I though she was going to die and spent hours sobbing. The vet says it is concussion but days later she still isn't moving right. She is eating OK but she isn't well at all. I think she is either badly bruised or she has slight paralysis. I don't know if she will be OK. :(

In myself I am OK but recovering from overdoing it with the decorating/ renovation. I'm still sad and worried about Robbie though.
 

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