What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[CraftyCath]

My blood results came back very quickly which is always a sign that something is wrong. The receptionist at the doctors surgery rang me and told me that the doctor wanted to see me.

My haemoglobin is a bit low (9 instead of 11) so that is why I'm out of breath.
My iron levels (stored iron) is very low (4.8 instead of 20+).

So I'm very anaemic. I have to take strong iron tablets 3 times a day and I have to see a haematologist to rule out anything sinister or underlying. My doctor thinks I may have always had low iron which is possible as I was anaemic when I was young and both times when I was pregnant. He thinks it will take a couple of weeks for me to start feeling better.

I want to be better now! :rolleyes: I'm tired, achy and out of breath. I have blurred vision, dizzy spells and I hurt all over.

I'm still going over to KP's this weekend even if I have to collapse on her new couch! :D

 

[Tanishq]

He thinks it will take a couple of weeks for me to start feeling better.

Good news Crafty Cath. Take care of yourself. :hug:

 

[amethist]

I'm still going over to KP's this weekend even if I have to collapse on her new couch!

Have a wonderful weekend with KP Cath.

 

[Spiderallis]

I'm embarrassed to admit how mean I was to me- I scolded myself for waking up triggered. It was a noise, I forgot the neighbor has the same tool and got scared that someone else was making the noise in my yard.

 

[Us Army Wife]

I am not feeling well at all. my husband came home last night he had been drinking and started yelling at me and pushing me then he hit me again, I can handle anything but the physical aspect. Then I finally cried myself to sleep when I woke up he comes over and kisses my head and says I love you WTF I can't do this. I have been with him for 27yrs and love him more than anything in the world but he is killing me one piece at a time. how or what do I do to escape him I am tired of living in fear. He doesn't have to go to work but I do and this is draining me and my work is suffering I can't lose my job why can't he understand this!! I have be come isolated he is allowed friends and nights out I am not! I am very alone and tired of the push pull at his whim. Help me figure this out please anyone!

 

[Philippa]

So sorry that happened Us Army Wife. Whatever your husband is going through, it is no excuse to hit a woman, period.

I hope you can come to a clear decision about what action you will take, because it's not something to just ignore, and you know that.

As for me, I have had about 20 minutes sleep. The cat kept me up all night being adorable and snuggling, and I'm grateful and content to have her, but I would have loved to have slept more than just 20 minutes. I have to work 12 hours. Thankfully it is crappy weather outside, which means it may not be busy for a while...so I can have a catnap at work. I am grateful that my work allows me to sleep when it isn't busy. Not many other jobs allow for that kind of luxury.

I feel a bit dispirited and don't really want to be social, but there is no escaping the women I work with who get bored easily and always want to hang out and talk. I just want to sleep or be on my own today, at least for a few hours. Not likely though. I feel crappy, but better than the other day. I need a shower. At least my cystitis has cleared up. I was getting worried for a while there.

I'm hungry as well, but too lazy to make anything to eat. My eyes are so sleepy. How am I gonna work today on zero sleep?

 

[Froggie]

I got an email from a friend from western Canada to let me know that her husband died in a farm accident. I'm in shock, sadness, ouff, it's the 4th person who has died since March and JM is still alive, so it will soon be 5 people gone. Makes me think why this all overwhelms me so much seeing that death, my eventual death, doesn't scare me. And I also believe in afterlife. Is it the fact that the present relationship ends and the complicity created will stop ? Is it some sort of dependance on the presence of the person that will be gone ? Today, I will be very reflective on these existentiel questions. Thank you for listening.

 

[CraftyCath]

Dearest Froggie. :hug:

I am so sorry that you have lost another person recently. I have no words of wisdom, just hugs. x

I'm still very weak and will probably sleep in the car as we are travelling tomorrow. The iron tablets are causing their usual side effects but I will have to put up with it all if I want to get better. I'm sick of taking tablets, I think if you shook me I'd rattle.

 

[Spiderallis]

Us Army Wife, that sounds like a very difficult situation to be in. Are you comfortable discussing the problem with your husband? The isolation worries me, I hope you're safe.

And Froggie, I'm sorry for all the loss you're experiencing and the heavy thoughts that come with it.

Hugs for anyone who'd like one- have a few, there's plenty to go around.

Today I'm drifting. Got a call from Mum, dad's in the hospital and I'm not sure why. She sounded annoyed and mentioned two unrelated issues as to why he's there. She's going for shoulder surgery next week, I hope she's not worried that he won't be able to help out. I can take care of mum. Not sure how well I'd handle dad though, he's a brat when he's sick. I probably shouldn't go around him anyhow, two weeks later and I'm still not over this darn cold.

 

[safenow]

US Army Wife, No one, and I do mean no-one has any right to hurt you physically. I don't care what kind of condition he has. There is just flat no excuse. 27 years is a long time to put up with a man, to have him treat you this way. That is one of the reasons I live alone now, and I love it. Perhaps you need to let him know if he does it again, you are gone. Period. Just my 2 cents.

I am happy (the cancers on my right kidney are completely gone). I am angry (there are those who want to put me in a nursing home - for my own good), I set them straight, real quick. I am feeling loved (when I came back here so many welcomed me back). I am scared (I have lived with chronic pain and death hanging over my head for so many years, I don't know how to live in a world without that). But I am pretty sure I can figure it out. LOL.

On my bedroom door, I have a picture I drew some time ago. It is of a wheelchair and a regular chair, the saying goes "Just because you are in pain is no reason to be one!"

Am I rambling? Sorry about that. Gentle hugs to all who need them.

safenow

 

[Philippa]

I'm so glad I managed to get a full nights sleep. Really needed that. I feel refreshed, and still a bit angsty in my solar plexus. I can't quite identify what the feeling is, but it is uncomfortable. Not looking forward to work, but once i'm there it's usually ok. Slight annoyance at the cat, but I cannot stay mad at her, she is too adorable. I have a pain in my side, and I'm still mad about the manager docking me last night and yelling. They are unbelievable. Feeling unappreciated by the owner, and blamed for business being slow, but I know it isn't my fault, and she is just a bit stupid and not realistic. They must have taken more than the tumor when they removed that thing from her brain a few months ago.

Physically I feel quite well right now, though a bit gaseous. Emotionally I need to vent some more and maybe cry, but again, nothing will come out. I want to contest the money being docked last night. Everything was accounted for and I finished the job on time, so he really had nothing to bitch about, but he did anyway. One thing I cannot stand is when someone tells me to stop swearing, when they are yelling at me. I know we were both stressed, and it just blew up, but still...there's no need for that. I was doing the best I could, and he could have shown a bit more empathy and understanding instead of being an asshole...but that is managers for you.

 

[Froggie]

You're not rambling ((((safenow)))), it gets maddening when people decide for others what is supposed to be good or not. You are lucide and know your limits and forces. You can make decisions for yourself.