Oh I'm also feeling uncomfortable since starting back on 'meds' after a hiatus in which I was neglected and medically abused as in malpractice due to deciding to wean off pain pills with my pain management Dr for severe spinal stenosis c2-c7/TBI - and RA in feet, and lower back which are all pain that comes and go like the wind....I've never 'liked' being 'addicted' to anything - possibly a benefit of dissociative disorder - ??
I only know that I feel really weird today and I've dealt with ALL my life's insanity and pain in the same way...laughing at it and doing something that makes me happy. Today, and most days now, that means writing about how I'm 'feeling'. And, wishing others who suffer relief and the best of luck.