What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Abstract]

did the same this morning

Sorry you did this too @KP the nut . Thanks for the company!

I did it again yesterday but by an hour and I had a meeting and again seriously inconvenienced someone. I seem to be going back into a phase where I randomly can't wake up on top of the continued insomnia. I hate this type of phase as it has the potential to mess up my life even more than the total lack of sleep. Chaos is the name of the game. Messing up twice in one week is not so great. Thank God noone can fire me except individual clients. I would not last a week if I was employed. May end up in jail one day though as getting myself to do what is required by law paperwork wise is a struggle and inconsistent.

Feel vulnerable and tired.

 

[Abstract]

did not choose the ER, nor my epi-pen last night. I do not fully yet understand (especially while amidst its symptoms) my allergy and what's my allergic reactions as opposed to possible other symptoms and reactions.

I have done that too before goingonhope. Afterwards I could kick myself and actually been a little scared in a vague way. I don't know about you but when I am verging on anaphylaxis or in the start of it I seem to loose the capacity to evaluate the situation well.

 

[Philippa]

Detached, ready for bed...and a bit gloomy, moody, and kinda nauseous.

 

[therisa]

Not sure, if anxious and numb, are the words that best describes, what I am feeling, right now, as I am going through emotions and experiences, from my past and have started writing about them.

 

[CraftyCath]

I am feeling excited. I took part in the filming of a documentary on Sunday with my husband and son. We were extras and had to be foresters and knights. The film won't show much of us but it was very exciting and exhausting as we had to dress in authentic costume including helmets, spears, swords, axe's, shields and, at one time, I had to hold a mace! Great fun!

I am also very nervous, anxious and just a bit frightened. I have a big birthday coming up (50) and my Sister and Sister-in-law have told me that I am going away from the 8th to the 10th of November! They won't tell me where they are taking me, not even the tiniest clue and now I feel all panicky! I guess I'll just have to ride this one out. It won't be abroad as I don't have a passport. I'm sure it will be fun when I get there but then it is the getting there that freaks me out!

 

[zaniara]

@Lionheart777 what a great step forward and thank you for sharing it! :) A hug back at you! :hug:

 

[zaniara]

A bit nervous for no reason at all, fragile, embarressed. A bit pleased that I managed to keep calm and stay poised when my ex did his 'push and pull' manipulation today, also a bit pleased that I managed to write my therapist and give him some feedback and assert my self some. He called immediately and we sorted it all out- not sure why I felt a lot of anxiety afterwards and felt like running away. But relieved that I managed to let go of the distorted thoughts fairly well. Now I'm very tired, but calmer.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am feeling so much better than I did yesterday. My mood has lifted and I am feeling calm and relaxed. I am at home and I am not freaking out now.

I am really trying to focus on the positive. And I believe it is working now, thankfully.

 

[DMerish]

Tired and grumpy. Errgh :mad: My sleep/wake schedule is pretty inflexible. If I can get myself to bed at the time I need to, and not have nightmears (which I have not the last few weeks) and sleep 6.5 to 7 hours, then I have energy thoughout the day and I'm able to better handle moods and other challenges. But my neighbor is on a different sleep/wake schedule - He gets up at 5:15am and his activities wake me up, so I'm trying to make myself adjust to his schedule and it ain't easy. Like I said, I'm tired and grumpy :sour: and venting.

 

[goingonhope]

I have done that too before goingonhope. Afterwards I could kick myself and actually been a little scared in a vague way. I don't know about you but when I am verging on anaphylaxis or in the start of it I seem to loose the capacity to evaluate the situation well.

Omg, :cry: . This made me cry. Somebody actually understands this. Thank you so much for your comments and sharing this. I am sorry you understand :cry: and I am relieved I am not alone. So therefore sorry again.

Also, I feel that way today, the part about kicking myself and very scared regarding my unmanageable allergic reactions, the history of it and my reoccurring total blindness (as in without adequate knowledge), fears and my ignorance. I feel so stupid and powerless.

Thank goodness, "feelings are not facts", yet it's not always easy to believe and convince oneself of this truth.

I do feel beyond powerless though, even in keeping up with vital and accurate communications with my doctors. This really has me scared too. They likely will never hear anything that they can understand from me about last night, or any other times either, because of legitmate factors for which I won't invite boredom mentioning.

Please though disregard my insecurities and fears and I really want to thank you again for your understanding comments.

Please accept my hugs :hug: Abstract, and I hope what you've experienced never happens to you again.

 

[ninja]

Disappointed. Sad. Frustrated. I can't seem to process things very quickly. Didn't get to finish my first exam even though I knew what it was looking for and how to get it. Failure. I'm going to fail the whole thing. It shouldn't matter this much to me, but it does. I feel like such a failure. I should go inquire about extra time, but I don't know if I'm entitled to it. Panicky.

 

[zaniara]

@Ninja breathe and be kind to your self, and ask for more time. :hug: