What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[rainy_daze]

Physically and emotionally lousy. Great bouts of insomnia and nightmares. I feel:

Exhausted, demotivated, lazy, depressed, worried and stressed. I feel guilt that I'm neglecting a giant to do list too, and spending a lot of time by myself instead of with other people (I've managed to avoid most social events I'd been invited to over the past two months).

I guess this just is what it is until I decide I want to spend time with people...?

I would like some energy and happiness back as soon as possible. My head and my body feels crap. :depressed: Self-pity-and-depression-soup is gross :grumpy::yuck:.

 

[DMerish]

@franciemarnie - It's seven weeks combined (vac, holiday, illness :- ) still not bad though. ;)

Come the end of tomorrow (Saturday) I'll have worked 73 hours this week.

How am I feeling? Frickin' exhausted! And grumpy. :sour: I'm pissed at the guy who doesn't have a muffler on his car and parked outside my window for twenty minutes last night and woke me up at 4am! :wtf: Next time he does it, I'm putting a robe on and my nasty face :devilish: and going down there to do some serious tongue wagging! :ninja: Oh, I feel numb too. I'm too tired to feel anything but numb or pissed.

 

[ms spock]

I did get some rest yesterday afternoon, felt a bit better, and then I went out last night to do things that were already planned and on the calendar. I had a really good time.

I am so pleased to read this. Put it on your lists of successes.

Something always comes up to interfere with just living my life and having plans and acting like a normal person. It's frustrating, but I'm continuing to learn to live with it. I'm also frustrated that no one around me here gets it.

It is hard.

I'm sure things will be better tomorrow. :rolleyes:

Great positive self talk.

 

[ms spock]

Feeling good today.

 

[ms spock]

I think the exercise stuff is terrific... it makes all the difference towards feeling better. You're gonna do great and look great while doing it, Britt! :cool:

Exercise is excellent.

 

[ms spock]

[DLMURL="https://www.myptsd.com/c/members/dmerish.21142/"]@DMerish Rest well! [/DLMURL]

 

[franciemarnie]

Stress hormones run amuck. So tired of hyper alarm state when nothing in real time is unsafe. Can't sleep. Fatigued at all levels - mentally, emotionally, physically, spiritually.

But... it warmed up and rained today so the snow is gone from where I walk so a walk is in my schedule today. Hooray! Looking forward to that. I always calm down when I walk. Though it is 4:37 am, I will walk back and forth a bit in the apartment and let my brain see my untrapped feet. Maybe that will help it relax.

@DMerish - when will you get a break miss? Sheesh. You sound good - though rightfully grumpy and exhausted!

@Ms Spock - Yay! You felt good today. Maybe Saturday too?

 

[franciemarnie]

@Britt.f7 - thank you for your feel better wishes. I did feel somewhat happy Friday but nearing dawn now sleepless so...tres bummer.

I didn't work out today. That may be a little why. PTSD is the main culprit of course.

Perhaps Saturday you will get a little exercise? I will be thinking of you and your colorful shoes when I take my walk.

 

[ms spock]

So tired of hyper alarm state when nothing in real time is unsafe.

I can so relate franciemarnie! I am so weary of the flight or freeze responses within me despite there being nothing dangerous in real time.

I had a great Friday night and Saturday. I so needed a break from it all.

 

[DMerish]

@franciemarnie - I don't know if it would help you, but when I have "those nights" I try to remember to put on some soothing and healing music, like Steven Halprin's "Spectrum Suite" and it helps me to at least relax my body, and to breath regularly. I did it last night because I noticed (with all the extra work and exhaustion) I was beginning to run on adrenalin/nervous energy, and when that happens I typically begin a swift downward spiral that takes days/weeks to recover from.

My work is winding down now and will be back to "normal" come Wednesday. I slept eleven hours last night. I feel somewhat tired today (so I'll take it easy). The crabbiness I was beginning to have gone, and I'm looking forward to having a relaxing, mellow day, possibly taking a walk outside - the first bit of sun in about six days seems to be calling me.

 

[Britt.f7]

Still a bit hampered by this cold. It is getting better, overall. I was not going to go anywhere but chose to go with my husband to the store when he asked. Kept breaking out in sweats. Not fun. I'm glad I got out, despite not originally wanting to. I'm going to rest my brain and try not to think negatively. I was doing that last night before I went to sleep. I am sincerely trying to be better.

 

[ms spock]

Feeling stressed and anxious but will clean the house to burn off that energy.