What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[cragger65]

Mina, that is so cool!! I'm glad you had a good one, we all deserve one of those once in a while. I am having a good day too. Just thinking more positively. What a relief!!

 

[goingonhope]

Recently figured out that the night time is an all around depressing occassion and/or trigger.

I feel sad when darkness falls.
I still sometimes feel frightened of going to sleep, and why exactly I don't know, as I feel safe where I live. Tonight is one of such nights I feel frightened to close my eyes.
I feel depressed, and why? Because it's night here; I always feel some degree of depression at night. Days can be a lovely challenge and full of excitement at times and stress other days, but when night falls, I can still find myself quite scared.

 

[Cindy]

Feeling flood

I think I have a flood going on ...

hopeless
overwhelmed
depressed
useless
guilty
frustrated
angry
anxious
confused
lonely

I would just like to hibernate for two weeks. While the world stops. Catch my breath, reorganize my brain, and do some fun stuff with art and beads.

 

[TLight]

Cindy..........if you can hibernate.....do it....

We all need time to just lay low and attend to our healing. I'm doing it now and it is helping me so much. No pressure other than being tender to me while I'm processing all this stuff.

I'm feeling fairly content today. I have a few good friends now and I'm going to see the salmon run today in Granite Falls.

 

[goingonhope]

I'm feeling uncomfortable (and have been under much stress) due to work, deadlines and high pressure that has been placed within our family these last two wks. and in addition to what already exists.

I guess, I'm feeling ovewhelmed!

My attempts are to encourage interdependence and team work and from the very start of all these added expectations.

However so much for influence at times when others have decided differently. So I'm feeling frustrated with my efforts for all of us to decide, focus and get these jobs done in cooperation with one another.

I feel somewhat angry that other's work and expectations are placed in my lap to take charge and encourage others to take initiative over.

Whatever, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.

On With It!


Hope

 

[lost girl]

I'm feeling comfortably isolated and lonely at the same time. Last night I drank for the first time in a long time and I danced for a while at a club. I wanted so badly to break out of my own little cage. Sadly (or maybe happily) it didn't satisfy. The truth is, I'm feeling abandoned at the moment by my PTSD boyfriend. He's going through a barely there faze. And lately I am having these huge urges to act out. I'm having intrusive sexual thoughts about everybody I see. I'm having urges to screw up everything in my life. I just want to be all animal and no person, like somehow that would make the hurting stop. I feel tired of my lonely boxed-in world.

 

[cragger65]

Hope, that sounds like a full load. Hope you can find a little you time to ease the stress a bit.

Feeling emotional today, cried and I don't know why. Was supposed to go see my God daughter, but having real emotional waves welling up in me. Tried not to use that as an excuse not to show up, even got my coat and shoes on, but then couldn't go out the door. One of those days, I guess.

Called my friend to tell him I wasn't coming, and he stressed I should drop down through the week, that Ashley, my God daughter would really love to see me more. I don't know how he's so blind, she doesn't really like me, hasn't really taken to me (she is going on 4) and it makes me feel guilty, that I'm not trying hard enough. On the other hand, I know it is because I am depressed and negative, and why WOULD a child take to someone in that state, which I have been to one degree or another her entire life? Anyway, feeling emotional but it's not as bad as the emotional overloads that I used to have a few years ago. I guess that's some progress.

 

[Tinyflame]

Possibly cragger, as regards Ashley, "don't try so hard".

Trust me, you've been around and she loves you.

Probably bored (I mean that in a good way) with your lack of novelty, but that shows she's comfortable with you.

She has her own personality too; if your friend said Ashley would love to see you- then that is so- take their word for it.

Your friend would probably love to see you more too.

 

[cragger65]

I wish that's all it was. But she never seems glad to see me, her parents have to bug her to give me a hug and a kiss goodbye. It feels more a failure to connect. My other friends' kids go apeshit when I go over there, on the other hand. Maybe it's the age, I don't recall ever connecting well with kids until they are at least 5 or 6. I think it's just me.

 

[Tinyflame]

Could be, but I was a shy kid- I understand how it may appear.

 

[Darkhorse]

Content and happy

 

[Malkanthi75]

Today? I feel (this is always hard for me). Scared, Anxious, lonely, lazy, I want to retreat.