What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Sammy]

Today I feel damaged. I can't seem to think clearly and can't get anything done. I feel angry because I feel damaged. I really hate every aspect of this. I work so hard to manage it and yet, I can't seem to get the dishes in the darned dishwasher. I wander around the house, starting 8 projects and finishing none. I really dislike feeling so scattered.

 

[Iam]

Jade and Sammy....I totally understand. I have felt different all my life, not fitting in anywhere. Never trusting what others "truly" think of me. As for being scattered....dang I can't believe what I forget and how hard it is to be productive.

Funny, I used to be so productive. Gots lots done and felt good about it. I had PTSD then, just hadn't been dx'd so was able to shove it all down and get through. Of course the monster always reared it's ugly head but I could subdue it. Now...ever since my breakdown I not only feel I don't belong, I feel lost and unable to accomplish or finish the most mundane tasks. I am forcing myself to do a little every day and for now, that will have to be enough ;o)

 

[goingonhope]

Right now, I am just so f'n pissed off I could just scream, scream, scream from being misunderstood nearly my whole entire f'n life. I feel angry. I feel hurt. I feel like destroying myself.

 

[goingonhope]

Woke up this afternoon feeling isolated and embarrassed, somewhat glad to have fallen asleep and woken up and yet did so very dazed and confused all day; Gradually though throughout this day I feel that very hopeless, dazed, out of control, still panicky feelings and shaming thoughts lessening.

 

[goingonhope]

Just feeling a tremendous amount of pain in all the upper parts of my body now which is too painful for me to continue to sit. I think it's from smoke toxins, that what my chest, back, neck, shoulders feel like, ...toxic from cigg's.

 

[James B.]

think it's from smoke toxins, that what my chest, back, neck, shoulders feel like, ...toxic from cigg's.

You know what, goingonhope, have been thinking the same thing about my body/leg/muscle pain, too. :doh:

 

[externalsmile]

Angry. Way too angry.

 

[Jade-]

Still feeling like I don't fit or belong. This forum has been a lifesaver for me, yet I feel I don't fit here. Even though there are so many others that suffer ptsd here, I feel different, seperate, like I'm a different species, not even human and I don't know what's making me feel this way.

I have a hard time replying to posts because I'm afraid everything I say is stupid, wrong or not worth reading. I feel like I'm too screwed up to have the audacity to think I can be of help to others. I'm feeling so insecure and afraid.

Feeling humiliated, insignificant, unworthy, angry, vengeful, anxious, afraid, depressed, stupid and ditzy. In other words, I'm in a highly triggered state.

 

[Iam]

I am sorry Jade. You have helped me tremendously. So many conversations when I am over the edge and ready to check out, but you have been there chatting with me, encouraging me to hold on. You are in no way ditzy, stupid, insignificant, worthless or any other thing you said above. We all feel different so you are no different there either. Hang in there. You know from experience that the trigger periods pass. You are doing so GREAT with your not drinking too! I am very proud of you Jade and very thankful for you.

(((HUGS)))
L

 

[Iam]

I have been in therapy exactly 1 year now and I am feeling
purged
free
happy
safe
hopeful

Wow, I sure hope it lasts!

 

[James B.]

I feel different, seperate, like I'm a different species, not even human and I don't know what's making me feel this way. I'm afraid everything I say is stupid, wrong or not worth reading. I feel like I'm too screwed up to have the audacity to think I can be of help to others. I'm feeling so insecure and afraid. Feeling humiliated, insignificant, unworthy, angry, vengeful, anxious, afraid, depressed, stupid and ditzy. In other words, I'm in a highly triggered state.

Sure hope writing these very difficult feelings out helps. There's been times in my life when I felt the same. The good part (and this may be a big part) is that you're totally aware of how you're feeling. And able to write it out clearly. Hope you feel better soon.

 

[cherryblossom]

Today, I need to shut down. Put up the 'closed' sign. Fed up with the day, and really pissed off with my life.