What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[purgemeofthepain]

I'm feeling rather guilty and disappointed in myself cause I relapsed into old destructive habits yesterday after a long time of avoiding them, and it felt almost as if I didn't even care or want to keep myself from doing these things. I was very aware of what I was doing and even so I carried on, as a spoiled child that only seeks his own gratification no matter what the consequences are.

So I'm hating myself right now.

 

[KP the nut]

In physical pain.

 

[The Albatross]

@purgemeofthepain , can you reframe the perception of this in way that is more generally beneficial? Rather than seeing your refraining from old destructive habits as "avoiding" them can you instead count the time between the destructive habits as a "success"? Sometimes it can help me manage the emotional upheaval and disappointment, self condemnation, and loathing... if I can try to focus instead on the amount of time I was able to refrain from the habit in that way. It doesn't change the fact that I lapsed, or relapsed... but it does turn down the volume in the hate and self loathing department.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I feel emotionally exhausted. I was feeling anxious and a lot of grief earlier. I usually try to not feel the grief. It makes me cry and I don't like crying. But this time I let my old fears come up and I let the grief settle on me. And I cried for an hour.

I thought I might not stop crying. The tears just kept streaming down my face. And then I sobbed until I started wheezing. I have asthma. I decided it was time to slow it down. And now I feel emotionally exhausted.

 

[Spiderallis]

Very achey and a little bit tired. In a fairly good mood anyhow, so long as I limit myself on moving around or using the stairs.

 

[purgemeofthepain]

Rather than seeing your refraining from old destructive habits as "avoiding" them can you instead count the time between the destructive habits as a "success"?

This certainly sounds like it could be a big help in not feeling so awful if and when I relapse again. I will take it into consideration next time I put myself in this situation. Thanks @The Albatross! (I say "when" I relapse again cause I realize I'm still FAR from being free from these habits and it will take a long time and a lot more effort to achieve said freedom).

 

[The Albatross]

I am learning to see even the distance between "behaviors/habits" as a success. I try to break the cycle, don't get me wrong but I am starting to recognize that the distance between the habitual maladaptive behavior is also important to recognize. It's progress. I'll take it.

 

[Loloma]

Operation successful although hand is very sore, black and blue. Stomachache, headache. Feeling sorry for myself. Didn't realise what the after effects would be. :(:banghead::inpain::cry:

 

[Tanishq]

@Loloma oh I am sorry to hear you. It's ok not to have so much detailed realization. Please be gentle on yourself as I am towards you. Sometimes you may not be able to calculate after effects of some serious operations. Wishing you gentle recovery. :hug:

 

[KP the nut]

@Loloma sending gentle hugs.

I'm feeling frustrated with the pain I am in. I can't wait till the end of the month when all of the hospital procedures will hopefully be done with and I can get on with my life again.

 

[Spiderallis]

I've already gotten enough done today to be content with what I've accomplished and I'm not even done with my coffee yet. Nothing hurts much so I'll keep going. Feeling good thus far, but I'll be sure not to push myself too hard.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Woke up with the emotional hangover of a bad nightmare. Very depressed and grieving the loss of my husband. I meditated and prayed and was filled up with feeling so much joy. Good thoughts now to focus on and it really made a huge difference for me.