What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Recovery4Me]

@gizmo

Sorry sweetie! I hate getting 'hijacked' during sleep. :whistling::whistling::whistling: singing a soft song to help you know you are not alone.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Thank you Recovery 4 Me. I really appreciate this from you.

 

[Philippa]

Feeling a bit frantic from a hot cup of mocha from Lindt on the way home...the caffeine makes me a bit jumpy. Happy with how the day went, though the vibe was brought down by yet more supposed 'adults' abusing each other on the internet. I have to keep in mind that only miserable people feel the need to do that, so they deserve some pity or compassion...but I'm tired of seeing it.

I just want people to stop for once and look at how they interact online and ask themselves "is this who I want to be?"...including me. I do my best to take the higher ground, but sometimes I lose it too and just let loose on some stranger, because I can. It's not ok but that's what we do sometimes.

Feeling curious, creative and itching to paint. I'm also really missing my brothers...and even my provider. Strange how I never really feel this way about my mother, and yet she was not half as horrible to me as my father was growing up? Had a cry on the bus home before...I feel better now but don't know what I'm gonna do? One minute I'm ok, and the next I want to call them but have no idea what I would say at this stage? I just want the turmoil around it to stop.

Feeling maudlin and down at the moment. Listening to kate bush is soothing...and I'm awaiting the first glaze on my painting to dry so I can get started on the fun stuff...tempera. :)

 

[CraftyCath]

Exhausted, weepy and irritable. Headaches, swollen mouth and tongue, aches and pains and cold. I feel like telling everyone to get lost (and that's being polite). I know it's the anaemia but I'm sick of being sick and fed up of being fed up! :arghh;

I went to the doctors yesterday and was told I couldn't have a blood test until the 28th August as the nurse/phlebotomist was on holiday. Why don't they have someone covering for her? When I do get my bloods done I have to wait a week before the results get back and then I can book an appointment to see the doctor. Surely with my history of anaemia and my symptoms they would just get it done instead of leaving me feeling like I'm wading through treacle?

Meanwhile I have a stall booked at a local medieval market and I'm not sure I will be well enough to cope with it. I truly hope I am as I've been looking forward to it.

 

[Recovery4Me]

Grateful to share hugs with @CraftyCath and @Philippa (if accepted) just because I've spent all day getting my car a new battery. It crapped out in front of the hospital during my test. No money and it was drizzling. :(
And now I must rush to work (which will go to the loan...lol).:banghead:

So since misery likes company...lets sing for a bit during the rain.:whistling: Maybe we can chase the blues away together or at least get the alleycats started in a serenade.

 

[Spiderallis]

Still recovering from a full week of being overwhelmed and horribly anxious. In a little bit I'll have my last T-time with my old T, the insurance made me switch but she's taken another job so I would've had to change anyhow. I'm a bit sad because I'll miss her but happy that she's found a better job.

 

[Let It Be]

I'm in shock, but it is a good shock. My neighbor across the street and I started talking and I was able to unload on her about some of the things that my next door neighbor had done.

It was the most validating conversation I have had with someone about her actions and behavior. I feel like I'm finally slowly getting me back after all this time. It is a great feeling to finally have felt heard and to get it all out into the open. More healing and feelings are happening which I need now.

 

[roaminggnome]

I'm feeling very down. Almost like the world is crushing me.

 

[Tinyflame]

Really really creeped out. Told sister of nickname I now call the dog (on rare occasion) during walks (very unusual name, have told no one else), windows in the house were open though. Not 5 minutes or so after she left the phone rang, it went to service, some guys voice said " This is 'Xxxxx'! " (the dog's nickname but drawn out). Looked up the number it's from the city core area. Really creepy, I mean- coincidence? Told sister, she heard, feels it is bizarre, creepy & really weird, too. :(

 

[Tinyflame]

Light on street burnt out too, not helping, considering that. :(

Also I swore sunday the garage door opened- thought my sister was getting home (she wasn't), thought my mind ('eyes') must have played tricks? :(

Really creepy.

 

[Recovery4Me]

@Junebug
Hugs sent from Ghost busters and me.

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Feeling different, feeling change.

 

[Philippa]

A bit upset, worried for my cat. I took him to the vet before and it was a different vet this time and she gave a totally different diagnosis to the previous womans. She says he might need surgery. :( turns out he has been in awful pain for the last 2 months that I haven't been able to take him to get more meds for his eyes, and I feel terrible about that...but I didn't have the money to take him. At least I took him today, when I did have the money, and I'm willing to change my plans to move somewhere new in the next month if it means getting him operated on so he isn't in pain.

I also feel a bit bad about over feeding him, and he is 1.5kg over the healthy ideal, she said. Teetering towards diabetes. The only consolation I have is that she thinks he had a whole history of medical issues prior to coming to live with me...so at least I cannot blame myself for that, and I really can't blame myself for not being able to afford his treatment the last 2 months. It's been a struggle with work being so slow during winter. I need a second job. Feeling a bit washed out, so many things I want to get going on, but feeling like napping to recover strength from the journey to see the vet.

I realise how emotionally dependent I am on mr lion. I couldn't bear it if he died as well. Think April dying ...it's still affecting me emotionally. I feel a bit frail emotionally. A bit zonked. My back aches along the spine area, and my head is hurting a little from staring at the screen too long. A bit more content physically, after scoffing some tuna on crackers. Glad to be in my cave right now. I'm hurting...thinking about my mother, and really conflicted about whether to contact them? My brain says it's not a good idea, but emotionally I am craving to be held.