What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Let It Be]

As I was leaving Wal-Mart today, I walked by the sister of my neighbor that moved. She did the usual chit-chat, how are you, as we kept walking from each other.

What got me, was how fast I began to feel worthless and damaged. It is like I had lost a sense of myself by interacting with her, like I had with her sister. In the past, this sister has very vocally trashed her sister that recently moved from here.

My body reacted as this sister is definitely not healthy to even walk by, just too much drama in their family. I guess I'm still learning how all this has affected me, not in a good way.

 

[Spiderallis]

Depressed and not having much luck fighting it. Feels like I'm treading water- not sinking, but not going anywhere.

 

[Recovery4Me]

Feels like I'm treading water- not sinking, but not going anywhere.

Stabilizing during a storm can be viewed as accomplishment. :hug:'s if you accept them.

 

[intothelight]

Guarded and committed to keeping the tentative balance I acieved this week.

 

[Philippa]

Downgraded, not happy about the new work I'm about to start tomorrow. I want to cancel but I need the money. I hate the position I am in right now. I want to find more fulfilling work, I just need to work to make some money while I do. I feel dismay that I have agreed to something my gut is telling me isn't good for me.

On the up side, I feel satisfied with the work I did today with a client from my own business, and was relieved to be able to make enough to cover rent for the next fortnight, so I don't need to stress about that. I am so grateful this person called me just when I was starting to stress about money again. I did my best to sort out centrelink stuff this morning so I wouldn't have to worry, but it became more of a stress in the end, so I did what I had to to get more money coming in when I need it, which is now, not in two weeks from now.

I will only stay long enough to make some money and find more work on my days off. I have commitments that I need to pay for and now I can, so it's ok, I just need to find something better and more...me. I know I will hate it, but I will push through until I find something better. I will take drawing supplies, books and music and have myself a good time in between customers. I will make good use of the time there and try not to get claustrophobic from the lack of space. I really don't want to go. I haven't not wanted to go to a job this much for AGES. My body feels very constricted around this issue, and my gut is twisting at how much I do not want to go. I feel a bit breathless about it. I feel miserable and I haven't even gone yet. That's not a good sign. I need to find something else asap.

 

[Spiderallis]

@Recovery4Me Thanks for the hug and perspective, I needed both.

Woke up far too early, made things feel worse by trying to work on my T-time homework. Trying to list the 'defining moments' in my life backfired, I'm even less sure of who or what I am.

 

[KP the nut]

I'm feeling sad and alone. Cried a lot last night which was weird as Hubby and I had had a nice day together.

 

[Recovery4Me]

@KP the nut ....offering how much warmth you give on the forum and the appreciation I 'feel' for the person you are and elect to share among us.

 

[Anrish]

I'm feeling exhausted. I haven't really slept for the last week....and I don't feel like I will be able to achieve anything.

I feel lonely - like I will never get in contact with other human beings who are willing to deal with me. I'm a loner and I will remain one.

I feel lost. My friend and I talked about the topic of getting a partner, marriage and children...I'm so empty inside that I don't have any feelings towards any of those topics at all and if there's one...it's fear.

 

[Nighthawk]

Extreme physical pain.

 

[roaminggnome]

I'm feeling less grounded and more scared.

 

[intothelight]

A little scared of the day, but a big issue that was causing stress has been resolved. There is relief there but I feel like I am waiting for "something else to go wrong" and need to shake that.