Anxious, exhausted...so , so tired. Upset and sad, dreading going into work again feeling this way and dreading working tomorrow. Feeling like I just want to go on the disability pension and paint for months and months to soothe my soul. It's what I really need and I'm so sad that my life is now back to being all about chasing money and survival still. I want to be free from this. I feel miserable. Trying not to give up hope. My lower back hurts so much. I'm so tired. I need rest. I need to be taken care of badly. I have taken care of myself for so long, I just need to feel someone stroking my hair and soothing me and comfort. I feel distressed. I feel hurt. I feel unsure. I feel dizzy and confused. I need to eat but not making any food. The gastro from last week killed my appetite but I still feel hungry? I'm angry and not feeling like I'm coping...but I need to make money and can't fall apart at the moment. I'm grumpy from feeling my back pain, and feeling tired. Grumpy and tired. Hollow. Demoralised.