What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[moonbeam]

Suicidal. Well suicidal ideation. Depressed. But also not.

The urge to give up is strong but I'm putting a solid effort into fighting it. I forced myself to get up go out and engage with people. The urge to quit is there but I'm trying to fight it and while I can't quite feel proud of it at this moment its something.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I still feel depressed and unimportant. It's making me feel sad. And I have pain in my back that's getting so bad I think I might end up using my cane today.

 

[Spiderallis]

More anxiety, slightly different kind than yesterday. It's not pretending to be heartburn, this is some kind of hollow tightness anxiety nervous thing.

 

[Ronin]

Still upset with how I read, empowered about anxiety management, happy ex-colleagues apparently were concerned, and happy about that choice itself. Toxic environments, I truly don't need to be in. Also, totally loving big pharma for all the awesome meds. And relieved ghosts of past stopped staring at me. I may move back to sleeping in the same bed as the bf instead of fighting all that stuff time took away. Shit this got long.

 

[ms spock]

Feeling frustrated with myself I could have easily done the 8 hours study yesterday but I got stuck in rumination and stressing out about things. I needed to have brain stormed and worked things out or come up with other things to do rather than sitting froze or being frozen or being dissociated.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Not in a good place right now and feeling a lot of bad feelings today.

Britt, just walk away from your friend as she has chosen not to talk to you. Not ideal but it does help you to move forwards and heal.

 

[Lionheart]

I am developing compassion for myself in a way I have never known before and it is helping me to process the darker, heavier trauma stuff.

I feel a sense of happiness and sadness at the same time, but I do not feel conflicted about it.

Feeling validated, loving towards myself, accepting of the past, determined to heal, and empowered.

 

[Spiderallis]

I'm trying hard to be nicer to myself. Took both my pain meds and the anxiety one today, so I've opted out of driving a car- it's not safe. Glad I made that choice. I'm not feeling ill from worry and it doesn't hurt to exist.

 

[Britt.f7]

@gizmo Thank you for the support. I will try. Hang in there. I'm sorry you are not having a good day.

 

[Anrish]

I'm feeling worthless, not under control and...just...meh....I feel filled with self-hatred.

 

[ms spock]

I am feeling hopeful today. I am feeling like I can manage things. I am feeling like I am competent and capable.

 

[roaminggnome]

@gizmo I hope that you're hanging in there and I'm sending you hugs.

I'm feeling relieved to get my meds sorted out by my pdoc today. I am feeling afraid that I will have another drug reaction to the new med. I'm still feeling pain from the reaction.