What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[ms spock]

Feeling challenged by dementia today. Feeling much less overwhelmed.

 

[Britt.f7]

Feeling guilty because I didn't stay long to clean at my dads.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Feeling scared and lonely right now.

 

[greenleaf]

Confused

 

[Lionheart]

Well I didn't go all day without a cigarette, but I did manage to cut down over half of what I was smoking previously and so I feel good about that. I knew it was going to be a difficult struggle, so I am allowing myself to cut down rather than going cold turkey.

All in all, I consider today to be a success and I feel happy.

 

[Spiderallis]

@gizmo Thinking of you, hugs and positive good stuffs, it's hard but you're handling everything very well so far.
@Lionheart777 Congrats on the awesome progress, that's very difficult to do.

I'm grateful that it's a cold yucky day outside, that delays yard chores and my parents 'helping' by yelling back and forth until I'm a nervous wreck. Guilty, because I'm disgusted at how slowly I'm progressing on catching the emotions before they turn into physical discomforts. The stress-belly symptoms are pretty bad today. I thought I'd be handling that better by now, so add on disappointment too.

 

[Anrish]

Motivated, brave and focused. ....and like I need a shower (just did my practise).

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Thank you Spideralis so much for your words of kind support. It really made my day.

I am grateful because I found an apartment that I can afford and already turned in my application and paid the twenty dollars for the fee on the credit check. The managers are both people who saw and heard me and are willing to help me to get the place. I thought that there was no apartments available and tried one more time.. It will be able to be ready in three weeks if I get it.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I feel hopeful because believe it or not, I found a three bedroom apartment that is available in three weeks. The managers are going to talk to the owner and tell her my story and situation and I really hope that I get it.

 

[Britt.f7]

@gizmo fingers crossed!

 

[Lionheart]

I am feeling very special, loved, inspired, and empowered.

It's seems that I've been blessed with some sudden, but welcome epiphanies, sweet synchronicities, bright insights, and the extra special gifts of love from my family and friends. I am in rare form today.

Sending out gentle healing hugs to anyone who may be struggling or suffering!!!

 

[ms spock]

I am feeling brave, courageous and heartful, wistful, happy and confident.

So I am focussing on the positives. I made B and Papa Bear pancakes this morning for breakfast. The carer that came and showered Papa Bear said to him that he was really spoilt and Papa Bear agreed and they have a happy conversation about that. I felt happy about this - that he appreciates and notices what is being done for him.

I told B last night that he does a wonderful job with his father and that he has to give himself a break. I went through a mental list of all the things that he does so well, and I told him that I am so proud of him for being so amazingly dedicated. He said he couldn't do it without me, I said we are lucky to have the relationship and life together that we have. (Girlfriend grumbling rights not ceded, by the way.) I gave him lots of love and affection yesterday as he is so tired. I am working on my attitudes and my being present in this now. I feel pleased about how I did this.

Papa Bear is someone that has been so much nicer to me than my own mother and father. I feel a little bit wistful about not ever having a nice parent He is someone who really appreciates the food he gets, the company he has and what life has on offer as well. (Okay he complains and obsesses but that is the age group and also the disease!)

He comes out in the morning and says things like "Hello Cutepie!" or "Hello Sweetiepie!" These are the moments to focus on and not the overwhelm. I feel special when he says this.

I have to tend to the overwhelm as otherwise I dissociate, space out, become not real or the world becomes not real or I eat or watch TV series obsessively - which also can be relaxation as well - so it is tricky. I feel not impressed that this is the legacy of Complex Trauma that I live with, but I feel so pleased I am not ruminating on that today.

Papa Bear has gone to day respite for the day - and he kissed me and hugged me and I kissed him and hugged him and I wished him a good day and he said sincerely "I wish you have a REALLY good day!" I felt happy when he left to go and hang out with his friends. He was so resistant at first to having in home help and going to respite but not he gets upset if he thinks we might run late! I feel so lucky to have such good skills in caretaking and organisation.