What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[notsurewheretoturn]

Triggered and very, very tired. Have eaten today which is more than the last few days, although I am not sure what day it is anymore.

Got through half a bottle of wine last night, getting through the rest tonight.

Everything running slow.

 

[Recovery4Me]

@Cj77 consider opening up your profile (hide the important stuff of course) and then we can sneak in to hug you up! I tried to do that and got bumped out...so I will hug you here.:hug::hug::hug: *Not judgement, your choice of course but until a member told me mine was closed, I didn't even know!:clown:

 

[hodge]

Aww, such a sweet-looking cat. I'm so sorry for your loss. I've been through it. My dog Misha died in my arms in 2009 and my husband and I still grieve for her. But you can take some comfort in knowing you were there for her till the end. That's really important. You didn't let her down.

 

[ms spock]

I feel like I am a new person. I am not comfort eating. I am not binge eating. I am not in denial about my feelings. I am not dissociated. I am not derealised. I am not depersonalised. I had given up hope on one level thinking I would just always need to work hard at managing my symptoms. I thought I was in the 6%. I have not managed an adult lifestyle - though I was reading the Constructions of Adolesence last night (And Santrock really misses the boat on domestic violence, trauma, child abuse, neglect, any understanding of what a childhood like mine, and many others on this forum and in Australia and around the world have experienced - but don't worry our time is coming. I am going to write a lot about this at some point in the future.) I feel competent and capable. I was present enough to read, understand and process information! GO VULCAN WOMAN GO!

So my life has changed dramatically since Friday - all the disciplines and practices I have been doing have had some kind of cumulative effect.

 

[Deleted member 29961]

Vulnerable... been wanting to write in my diary all weekend, just feeling to vulnerable.

 

[hodge]

You go, Ms Spock. I'm looking forward to what you find. And you inspire me to keep up with my relaxation and mindfulness exercises.

 

[Deleted member 29920]

Thanks @Recovery4Me , I have opened it now :)

 

[Recovery4Me]

:woot: @Cj77 I tried to get it in but I could not do so still.:bawling: Bummer. *Took me two times to get it to work too.* Treehugger helped me.:)

So...here is some more :hug::hug: until you and I get this down!:D

 

[ms spock]

@hodge every little thing helps and is powerful long term. I started off in the smallest of ways my self. Thanks for the kind comment and support @hodge.

I feel sweaty! I just walked forty minutes!

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am very sick with the flu today, fever and nausea and digestive problems and this was the reason I had to break a promise to myself and felt like a failure and called a very good friend twice today and networked to try to get a better job and asked for his help so this was a new thing I made a compromise with myself and feel innerly at least that I am not a failure.

Hold over from abusive parents who hated it when I was very sick and they thought I should get tough and get over it. So I was punishing myself and I caught it an knocked it off.

I have to journal about this one because the realizations are coming fast and furious. New growth spurt. I am so glad for the people on the forum who have been my friends and helped and supported me. I am feeling my spirits lift now and feel very good about this now.

 

[notsurewheretoturn]

@gizmo you are allowed to be I'll and I hope you feel better soon. (Hugs!)

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Thank you notsurewheretoturn for being so kind to me today. I really appreciate so much what you said.