What Are You Thinking?

[Britt.f7]

I am thinking that I am tired of being poor(yes I know there are worse off then myself). The only way out of this is if I can go back to work full time, and, at this time, that isn't going to happen. I wish my body would cooperate.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I'm thinking I'm actually starting to develop a fear of going to sleep. I had so many nightmares last night. I had many many one right after another and I woke up after each one. And I had nightmares the night before last too. And I'm sitting here it's and 2am. I was exhausted and falling asleep off and on all day and I know I should go to sleep but I'm actually feeling afraid of going to sleep.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

After all the hell my daughters husband put us through when my husband died, my daughters husbands mother just died. She was taking care of her ill husband and now him and his brother have to figure out how to take care of their father. It feels like karma to me. I do not know if I am wrong in thinking this but he sure put us through such hell.

 

[Britt.f7]

That I am having my father in law over for Easter, but do not know whether I should tell him how bad things have gotten for us, and that we might lose our house. I think he is going to find out anyhow when we have to put up the house for sale, or it goes into foreclosure. I'm hoping, truthfully, that he might have some ideas that will help us. As I feel bereft of ideas.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am thinking about the future. My daughter was up all night applying for all sorts of programs to help us.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am thinking how good always comes out of the bad eventually even many years later. I am thinking how good closure can be. I am thinking that I am so happy I survived the past four years.

 

[Britt.f7]

I am thinking today is a bad day for my son. He didn't get into a college he wanted. I really hope he gets an acceptance letter from the other one. I would hate that he is disappointed, even though I know it is all a part of life.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am thinking I need to do something special for the anniversary of my husbands death on the twenty sixth of next month. I need to do some kind of healing project that will make me remember the good times. This first year went by so very fast. I cannot believe how fast.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am racking my brain for what to do for a healing comfort on the anniversary of my husbands death next month.

I am choosing to hang onto the good memories of him. But mabe I will plant a little tree or something. I can write in the journals for my daughter and her two girls.

I can celebrate having moved on.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am thinking that on May first my new dental insurance starts so I can do the work on my teeth with my own dentist that I like very much.

 

[Britt.f7]

I am thinking I can get use to this not feeling depressed. It has been so long that I just can't imagine it being like this for good. Not going to dwell on that possibility. I'm just going to go with this decent feeling.

 

[amethist]

I am thinking it is unusual to not be feeling nervous about going to the dentist on Monday.

I am usual on hot bricks for 3 or 4 days before hand.