What Are You Thinking?

[ninja]

I'm thinking that the environment I put myself in is just as important to my overall growth as is the therapy and internal work. Consequently, I'm thinking that I want to move. Specifically to the pacific northwest somewhere... Hmm...

 

[DharmaGirl]

It is beautiful out here. I live in SW Washington so we have rain for 9 months, then sun for 3 months. People are more laid back here, and don't rush around so much. People are friendly. I live across the river from Portland, OR, so people, myself included, are weird here. I love it!

 

[Tinyflame]

@Britt.f7 , ((((((hugs))))))))), xoxox.

@Ninja , I think more than 5% of my 70000 average thoughts are conscious! :hug:

 

[ninja]

@DharmaGirl That is what I keep hearing! I have some friends around the Vancouver area as well as Seattle. It is gorgeous and I have definitely felt the calmer, more laid back vibe when I've visited. I love it! I currently live in the Midwest: it is cold and the majority of the people here seem to have taken on that type of energy. Plus, I am weird too... so the more eclectic the better! Adding to my list of reasons... :D

@Junebug Oh, I can so relate! :hug:

 

[roaminggnome]

I am thinking that although the odd are stacked against me that I can do this. I can figure a way out of my situation into a future of my own. Somehow I am going to figure a way to move out. It's just probably not going to be the path I thought I'd take. And that is starting to become alright with me.

 

[Britt.f7]

I'm thinking that if my friends wouldn't have died when I was seven, and all that surrounded that time, didn't happen, I'd be in a different place then I am today. It really shaped my life. 40 years later and it still effects how I feel about things. Death in particular. I just think that it would have been different. Maybe better, maybe not. After all, there were still other traumas that definitely made their impact on me. However, maybe it would be easier to fight those without the deaths hanging over me.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am thinking that I will have good and bad days, and it is a shock to my system that I am having a bad day today. After three years of bad days, I really do not want to have bad days but I need to accept the reality that I have PTSD and I will always have the symptoms. I did not do so well managing them today. I am thinking that I hope tomorrow is a much better day for me.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I'm thinking that if I showed up to therapy as inconsistently as my therapist does I'd still be in a place where I couldn't identify that I was having distorted thoughts. And I'm thinking it's a d*mn good thing I like to research how to cope with my symptoms. At least that way I can consistently do things to try to help myself. It's like a whole new variation of self help. Can you tell I'm angry at my therapist for cancelling again? I feel bad for her health but I can't help it that I'm starting to lose my patience.

 

[DharmaGirl]

I'm thinking I would fire that therapist. I'm also thinking that I want to sleep,

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I'm thinking I would fire that therapist.,

The problem is she's good. Now if she could just be consistent instead of being consistently inconsistent I'd be happy.

I'm thinking I should remember to try to have some compassion. I'm thinking that's hard for me when I feel angry.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

When I first started therapy, my life turned upside down for so many years. Now twenty years later I am reaping the joy that was promised me from the beginning. I feel so alive on most days now. There is hope on the healing journey that someday it will all pay off. It surely did for me.

 

[Definitely..maybe]

I wish I could remember more and not have flashbacks to memories surfacing at inconvenient times!:cautious: