What Bad Shit Have You Done - Daily, As it Comes To You, Your Past, Lets Be Honest

[Marie E.]

@Heather You go girl!!

 

[anonymous]

I have been watching porn.

 

[Ed Norton]

Is that bad?

 

[UnKnown-Self]

@Kailani

I used to do the same...

 

[Heather]

Can I tell what bad sh*t other people have done?

Was in Walmart and cops marched out a woman in handcuffs (probably shoplifting) and behind her was her daughter probably about 11 or 12 walking out with another officer.

Nice, bad enough you steal. Do you have to involve your kid?

 

[Heather]

Although, why am I acting so righteous? I've stolen stuff before. Never from Walmart. Just my mother but she deserved it.

At least that's what I tell myself.

 

[UnKnown-Self]

One thing I have learned is, try not to judge. I still do sometimes but I have and still am judged quite a bit. I want to tell them walk in my shoes. I'm a damn success and I have every reason to be proud of how far I've come. But I don't, I apologize to the f*ckin chair for bumping into it and instead of pride most of the time I feel shame. Shame that I carry not only for what was done to me but the shame of societies judgments. As a child and even now as an adult because I want to do the work and heal but finding a therapist who will work with someone who has complex PTSD and co-conscious selves is not so easy.
Yes I have stolen from stores. Its been a couple decades past but still, I did it. It can be a form of self medicating just like drinking and drugging because of the rush. Sometimes at certain stages a person with PTSD becomes an adrenaline junkie.
Now I just want to be whole and know who the hell I am so I can sleep at night and wake up without negativity rumbling in my brain.

 

[Heather]

It's one thing if you (as an adult) want to steal BUT leave your kid at home because they are the innocent, caught in the middle.

 

[UnKnown-Self]

People do shameful stupid things is all I'm saying. Maybe it was her way of saying HELP. There's lots of things people do in front of their children. Drink, drug, curse, introduce them to racist thinking. Scream, throw shit, beat them, the list is endless...
Maybe her daughter needed a pair of shoes or underwear and for whatever reason it was unsafe to leave her at home. Yes I know there are other, legal ways but maybe she needed them right away and the "right" ways were too much red tape ...too far, whatever.

Maybe she is a junkie and was stealing stuff to sell for a fix and hoped bringing her daughter would be a cover or create sympathy if she did get caught.
We have not walked in her shoes, lived her life and we don't know. I hope both her and her daughter get the help they need.

 

[Klo]

I think the most messed up thing I have ever done was kill two mice.

I was 17 and still had to visit my biological father every other weekend per the law, about 3 hours away from my mother's house. During one weekend visit, for whatever reason he bought me two pet mice. My father was the sort of person who would treat you like total garbage and abuse you, and then do a random nice thing (in his mind) to make up for it (again, in his mine). So I get two pet mice randomly as a "sorry I terrorized you last weekend" present.

I took the mice back home and bought them a habitat with food and toys and everything. But these mice would fight at night, and they would make the most terrible noises. I could not stand these hostile/pained noises while they were fighting all night, it made me feel absolutely unstable and insane, though I never figured out why. One night my reaction to their fighting was so terrible that I felt like if I did not get rid of these mice immediately I was going to go completely insane.

So I threw them outside, and it was winter time, and a cat killed one of them (I found it), and I am sure the other one perished since there was like 2 feet of snow outside and predators everywhere. I still feel haunted by it to this day whenever I think about it, because in that moment I lost all empathy and essentially murdered some animals over the sounds they were making. Makes scared half to death of myself.

 

[Lionheart]

This is hard for me to admit to, but I think I may be a little bit racist.:(

I have yet to meet any African-American people that I really thought I could trust. I don't trust easily anyways, so trust is a core issue for me with everyone, and I haven't known many African-Amercian people to begin with so, I hope this is just inexperience and ignorance on my part. :facepalm:

I hope that whatever 'racism' is in me, I can completely extinguish that trait because it does not represent the kind of person I want to be!!! :depressed:

 

[Klo]

This is hard for me to admit to, but I think I may be a little bit racist.:(

I have yet to meet any...

Not sure where you live, but here in the U.S. between media / entertainment industry, and then growing up in certain parts of the country, it can be very easy to form a subconscious fear of other races. I get it, too, I grew up around some racist adults and then the media did not give me a good impression, either. There is also sexism with it, as well, in that I also get a fear response from men in some situations that I wouldn't get from women. Anyway just wanted to let you know you're not alone. I try very hard not to let my behavior/expressions/etc reflect racist or sexist fear because I know it's not fair and don't want to make anyone feel bad or offended, but yeah the fear response still happens.