What Cant You Get Out Of Your Mind?

[Froggie]

I would say I am just about asexual as well.
Scott

sometimes the PTSD source of trauma will do that. I'm finding it hard to let someone come into my intimate sphere now. So partly asexual but a divorced single if you want. Before PTSD, did have some Bfriends.

 

[Froggie]

I'll be dead before the therapist has enough one-hour time slots to help me.

I can't get any of it out of my mind. It free-floats. There is not a time I do NOT think about it. It is ALWAYS with me.

((((LSNP)))), it always like that, it takes time, it took me time. Keep getting help, it's your road to empowerment. There is no contest nor normal time frame to get to that point ... we all have to take the time ... for ourselves ...

 

[Froggie]

Just catching up on this thread and reading after posting what now feels to be a very selfish post.

((((LSNP)))), you made me smile, as I can relate to what you are saying. As some members have helped me realize is that the suffering is real, our compassion perceives others who are suffering as worse than our own. But never forget, your pain is real, and it has to be vented out to move on. So nothing selfish. And your experience will help others, even give them words to express themselves.

 

[Srain]

I can't get the look my tdoc had (she is quite advanced at her ability to stay and look quite neutral during sessions) had when I gave her some of the lowdown on my mother. She had a mixture of horror, hate, disgust, sadness, understanding, and sense of purpose. I was a bit taken aback by it as I would have thought the actions of my father, due to his status at the time, something I had grown to accustomed to experiencing, would have been the case but no. I can see she is on the warpath for this woman and it is truly the first time someone outside of my gf, who years ago became unglued when I called crying and in hysterics because that woman let me in so close and loving then insisted I was and called me a "whore" because a man gave me attention while I was engaged, once again ripping my self-esteem apart. Quite possibly a huge reason I have never dated much but rather married instead.......sheesh!!!

My tdoc is just waiting for me to be ready so she can address this woman and HER issues that effected me. :eek:......I am epicurious and way more than that.....thinking maybe after all that I know about my mother, and I know a lot, somehow there may be things even I missed!

Rain

 

[KP the nut]

I can't escape my nightmares even when I wake.

 

[starry-night]

Oooft, where to start...

I can't get his the sound of voice out of my head, when he said he was going to kill me if I made him angry. Can't get the words he used out of my head. Can't get that fear out of my head.

Can't get the sound of the scream I never managed to let out, from out of my head.

Can't get the feeling of my soul breaking from out of my heart. Can't get the sound of shattering glass from out of my ears.

Can't get the feeling of being shattered, broken into a million pieces, from out of my soul.

Can't get the expression of utter shock on the young WPC's face out of my head.

Can't get the words of a consultant psychotherapist out of my head. 'You're lucky to be alive' she told me.

Can't get the knowledge of how much worse is should have been, form out of my mind.

 

[AliveInside]

Thank you for sharing starry-night you've been through a lot and thank you everyone for making me feel a little bit less alone and a part of a group of survivors. I'm trying so hard to lose that victim mentality. Is this how I do it? It feels like it could be.

 

[Froggie]

((((Rain)))) so sorry for the hurt people put you through. You didn't deserve that

 

[foreverchanged]

The sound of the gunshot and the smell of very pungent gun powder around his face as I sat with him waiting for the police...and blood

 

[Srain]

Thank you ((((((((Froggie)))))).

Rain

 

[scott_1971_h]

I can't get out of my mind the feeling of being trapped, held hostage to Yeti's constant/latest neurosis, and powerless to escape. I hate her, I hate her, I hate her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Scott

 

[Froggie]

((((Scott_1971_h)))) take some good deep breaths and get some grounding tricks. Find ways to put a distance to that entrapment feeling. Linking arms with you.