What Is On Your Mind Right This Second?

[Tornadic Thoughts]

It's been really weird because we usually get at least one or two a day. But not in the last two weeks or so.

Sorry they're buggin' the crap out of you now, @whiteraven . May they lay off and stay off.

I sort of miss the days the humans were doing it. They provided me with much entertainment as I enjoyed f'n with them. The robocalls are no fun at all.

 

[Rainman8772]

Had one call today claiming to be from Amazon and wanting to issue a refund if I gave him my banking info. Told him it was his lucky day because he called a former federal agent and even Amazon doesn’t have my banking information so why in the hell would I give it to him. All I could hear then was quiet then a quick slam down of the phone.

 

[ladee]

I NEED one to call so I can talk to someone!! :laugh:

 

[ChildofGod]

I feel like I have a v for victim tattoed on my forehead, and I don't want it there anymore.

 

[Ellabella44]

Hugs to all especially those having a hard time.
My grandmother died today of cancer. My cousin called me. Since I went no contact with my mother and step father, I thought his brothers family and grandma would hate me and reject me like my step sisters did. She said I was missed by them all and would have been welcome. I wish I knew that before all this virus stuff. I would have visited. I've missed them.

Its my mother and Step father they are not speaking to because of arguments over managing grandma's health needs once she was told it was terminal. My mother put her two cents in trying to take charge of everything and grandma banned her from the house. It sucks that I missed saying goodbye or even seeing her one last time. Its unfortunate that things were so bad that I had to go no contact to save myself and stay sober.

Another thing taken away because my mother and step father don't know how to be decent human beings.

 

[Tinyflame]

I'm so sorry for your loss @Ellabella44 . :(:cry:

Maybe something added- partly from your grandma and others?- that you deserve to be treated as a human being, and therefore she and her family would understand your absence and even hope you continue to treat yourself more lovingly, just as your grandmother loved you, and they love you? :hug::hug:

 

[Lionheart]

Life, death, and the possibility of an afterlife.

Maybe it is advancing age or perhaps it is due to health concerns, or the loss and subsequent grief over family members....I don't know, but my mind seems to be quite preoccupied with it lately.

 

[Tornadic Thoughts]

Sending gentle heart hugs to you @Ellabella44 . So sorry for the loss of your grandmother and for the ways the others chose/choose to be. ?

I'm feeling frustrated and borderline pissed off by the increasing number of folks who feel anyone with a mask of any kind in their possession is purposely "hoarding" them and keeping them away from medical personnel and continually try to guilt trip them into giving them all up. Make time to get to know the reason(s) they, especially strangers, have them before jumping to such conclusions. You might be surprised.

I, personally, have masks (and have had them for a couple years now) because I have to protect myself from any and everyone wearing and using fragranced products of any kind, including medical and professional staff in every single office I visit. Read up on Multiple Chemical Sensitivity to learn more, if you're interested.

Unfortunately, one of my worst experiences ever of being exposed was in the back of an ambulance with an EMT who had been marinating in super strong Axe cologne, and then the CNA and nursing staff at the hospital ER, as well as on the floor where I was admitted, who were also wearing strong perfume/body sprays/lotions and many of their scrubs reeked of heavily scented fabric softeners. If I wasn't ill before I got there, I damn sure would be before I got out of there. That was the experience that convinced me to always have a mask in my possession.

The a-fib/atrial flutter symptoms got way worse before it (thankfully) got better, partly due to feeling so anxious because I couldn't escape the toxic fumes that were causing even more symptoms, and I had to fight like hell to try to protect myself from the smells.

I happen to be someone who has to wear a mask to protect myself from medical personnel who choose not to follow the policy that's already in place regarding not using scents in direct care positions, as well as the rest of the general public. If I had enough that I feel like I could safely share, I'd be more than glad to.

Maybe one day I can freely, and very gladly, give them all up to whoever needs them. But until folks choose to be fragrance-free, the few masks I have left are going to have to stay with me. I've already shared several with family members who are high risk. May everyone get what they need to be safe and be able to stay, or get, well.

 

[ms spock]

Singing and when people luxuriate in a great experience.

 

[8888]

Thinking of everyone here.

@Ellabella44 So sorry for your loss.

I am thinking that I am both nervous and excited to be seeing a new therapist tomorrow via video chat. I've been thinking I want to write down some notes today so I remember to tell her some basic important points.

 

[whiteraven]

So sorry, @Ellabella44. Losing someone close is hard, esp. when there is discontent in the family.

I've been thinking that I have so much to do and am happier (well...you know) doing nothing. But I'm not really. I really want to *do* and seem to lack the motivation to.

 

[Survivor3]

Steak. Cooked well done with mushrooms peppers and onions. Mashed potatoes served with a peppercorn sauce. Yeah!!!