What Made You Angry Today?

[CraftyCath]

((((jo may))))

 

[KP the nut]

I am angry at the little mousie who lives/visits our garage. We store food in there and I was going to prepare my dried fruit today in preperation for baking my Christmas cake tomorrow. The little so and so has eaten my sultanas and has wandered around the rest of the packet. I think little mousie is now a big mousie.

 

[AngelaMarie]

My ex of course. He is once again acting out!:mad: At least this time I have went on with life and even slept. I wouldn't have been able to do it before!!:)

 

[Queen Boudica]

Kmart (equivilant to Wallmart) and their new policy of irresistably low prices" selling this policy to mums. Advertising this policy with a whole load of mums jumping up and down so ecstatic that they can't believe how low the prices are.

How do you think a $10 pair of jeans gets made? In a sweat shop in India, or some other 3rd World country where the workers work long hours, sleep, and eat in disgusting conditions for a pittance of a wage. That is how. It is exploitation.

I'd rather go to a charity shop and buy my jeans there. At least that is green.

 

[jo may]

Get on AngelaMarie, well done :)

 

[AngelaMarie]

Lizio,
In the words of Rain Man (Dustin Hoffman) "Kmart sucks"! ;)

 

[Saphy]

Man, today wasn't as rough as yesterday. But I stayed at the office a bit later than expected and my friends walked in asking me why I'm in the office and keeping it open later than needed. I calmly just answer, "In case anyone needs anything and walk in, I'll be here. Why are you awake?" Maybe I just see things differently, but I don't think of having to be at the office from 7p-12a such a big deal when it's literally stationed in the same building I live in. I'm just sitting in a chair and able to do my work or surf the internet for 5 hrs. Kind of... normal since it takes me that long to finish a task anyways. I'm also a pretty timid person nowadays (normally I'm so outgoing so I think my PTSD is pulling me away from people) so getting to interact with people in my office is normally the highlight of my day even if it's in a negative context. But I guess it's hard to say to these people, "Hey when I'm alone... I really get lonely and can't handle it." I think that's what people call "TMI." So until people can figure out I'm most likely not the same as them and have something slightly different/unique in my approach to daily life, I can only expect them to question why I'm awake at odd hours, why I try to keep to myself about how my days went and why I stay late at the office when I'm not required to. I always try to make my PTSD work for me instead of the other way around. Is it a crime that I decide to stay late? Honestly, is there any reason to be in my business all the time? Seriously.

"Eff off kid, I'm here because I want to be... so go away."

(I'm a Resident Assistant and yesterday I held the office open 'till 3a which is reasonable since kids are always forgetting their keys and IDs on Saturday nights and can't get into the building. If I'm awake anyways, why bother going to my room if I'm just going to be called downstairs anyways. I don't see a problem in being helpful but I think because I'm new a lot of the other RAs feel I'm trying to show off or something. It's so frustrating to not be able to tell them "I don't like sleeping" or that "I just happen to have a lot of work to do and want to finish it outside of my room" or even, "I like being able to do my work in a lively place where people are constantly walking in and out of the building... just keeps me awake.")

 

[Deleted member 10686]

i'm angry at a few things today!

1. I'm angry at my lungs. I kind of need them to breathe, and they are not wanting to comply.
2. I'm angry that I can barely smoke a cigarette (Yes i know, i know) because it hurts too much to smoke but then withdrawals and bs if i don't!
3. I'm angry that my 'fever' was only 98.7 pretty normal but I FEEL feverish like i've got a fever of 3000000000 and i cant stop the sweating and the chills. ugh.
4. I'm angry that I cried at the doctor today. I made myself look like such a huge baby. but physical discomfort and pain is the only way that tears make their way out these days.
5. I'm angry i spent most of the appointment dissociated and coming across like a freak. I'm angry I didn't know what was going on until the doctor lifted up the back of my shirt to hear my lungs and he dodged an elbow headed towards his face.
6. I'm angry that a nurse, even better, a male nurse, had to give me a steroid shot in my ass. he told me to bend over the table thing and he was going to drop my pants. I stood their shaking and ended up crying like a baby. its not the needle that i was crying about. Also another bit of jumpy-kick reaction. I'm lucky i'm not getting sued.
7. I'm angry that after all this, I had the smart idea to try and go grocery shopping, since I was there already. I apparently chose the busiest time of the day and the week, people everywhere chaos, and then my therapist walks by.... soooo damn awkward. I just had to leave. i was a half dissociated sweaty clammy stinky been in urgent care all day mess and ..no!!! he is only safe in his safe little office!!! In the real world he is someone who knows too much about me! ~~~~~~quick exit run to car~~~~~

8. I am also mad that once I finally get home, i have a baby sitter for another hour, i might get to lay down for 1 hour and just RELAX, my abuser starts calling and texting me off the hook. on top of calling and harassing everyone i know, which causes everyone i know to call and text me with drama. can't a fomo get any peace?!?!?!?!

Okay. I'm sorry. I may have gone overboard here.

 

[jo may]

The fact I can't sleep tonight is really annoying me, or should I say this morning as it is 6.46am.
My kids will be up soon I think I must have slept to much recently. I hate my body it hurt's everyday, my PTSD has kicked off in a major way.

My husband really upset me last night I'm still mad, he more than anyone knows what I've been through and to keep using it against me is wrong! I know he deals with a lot but still it was out of order:cautious::mad::(

He said a total of 9 words to me last night before he fell I sleep, he said "I'm sorry I feel ashamed for upsetting you today".And when he wakes I just have to go back to HEY I'M HAPPY! When in fact I'm not but anything for a peaceful life.

I'm just glad I took the forum staff's advice and talked to someone on the phone, I don't feel great but I feel fair better than I did feel. Plus the person I saw said he was going to get my CPN to phone me today as he feels I'm struggling and could do with weekly rather than fortnight visits/meetings. Hope she does ring I won't be impressed if she doesn't.

But never mind as my mum sings at me "alway's look on the bright side of life" :roflmao:

 

[jo may]

Not over broad if that's how your feeling (((((fm))))) :)

 

[Saphy]

5. I'm angry i spent most of the appointment dissociated and coming across like a freak. I'm angry I didn't know what was going on until the doctor lifted up the back of my shirt to hear my lungs and he dodged an elbow headed towards his face.

Okay. I'm sorry. I may have gone overboard here.

I can't help but laugh at that. Not at you, but I guess my sense of humor is oddly distorted. Anyways, that is so funny because I act the same way. Whenever someone invades my space I have such a hard time suppressing my reflex to punch them. I've explained it to some people but they think I'm overreacting or just exaggerating. But honestly, it isn't controllable. Almost like a twitch or sneeze. I don't like it if people invade my space since I've had space issues since my incident. So naturally, yeah, self-defense comes into play. Can't blame you for wanting your peace of mind. I'm with you on that forwardmotion!

 

[Queen Boudica]

Being treated like a thief everytime I leave Kmart or Target without buying something. Why do you have to check my bags? Because it is Westfield's shopping centre policy? Why is it store policy to treat your customers like thieves? Most of the other stores in Westfield don't do it so why do you? It is just insulting and a complete waste of time.

For God's sake, there is a security gate and all the items have tags. And, anyway, if I were stupid enough to steal something I would stick in down my bra or knickers not in the bag that I know was going to be checked. Why don't you check there then? Go on I dare you!

Or I would buy something really cheap and then steal something expensive and stick in down my dress, and go through the till where you mostly don't check bags. But sometimes you do which is even more insulting.

And anyway, when you do check the bags, I just open it up and you look. I just had a whole load of reusable bags in there how would you know if there wasn't anything hidden underneath them? You wouldn't. So why waste your time, my time and treat me like a thief!

No I did not say that to the poor woman who is employed to stand there and check people's bags every time they leave without a purchase.