What Made You Angry Today?

[simplekindofgirl]

It would be so much easier to answer- what did not make you angry today. Because today, it has been everything!

 

[KP the nut]

I feel guilty for saying this but today my dog Max has made me angry. I know it isn't his fault, but he has so much energy and doesn't co-operate when I am trying to see to his wound, or change his T shirt.

I am exhausted from man handling him at the vets and from taking him for a walk. He has to be on his lead, he almost had me over (and believe me I'm no lightweight) by suddenly charging after a CAT. My back and shoulders ache. Tomorrow he will be in a head collar :devilish:

I can't do this on my own :cry::notworthy:

 

[soulofLC]

((((KP))))

 

[alleycat]

I'm mad at myself. WTF is wrong with me that I can't maintain any sense of calm for more than half a day? I got all my school crap done, the semester was over, didn't have a damn thing to do. I had the night and then half the next day where I felt awesome, then the shitty anxiety/unease about EVERYTHING started rolling back in.

 

[soulofLC]

I am angry because I don't have any desire to help myself. I wish I was not calm, ((((Alleycat)))). I know the anxiety and feeling of unease and it too can be deiblitating in itself, but I have no drive right now. Just plain flat and don't care.

I suppose I will have to have an empty fridge before I spring into action; I am so close. Just trying to get through the day.

 

[Tosh]

Mad at my inability to maintain healthy relationships.

 

[jo may]

I was very angry with H but we have sorted it out, he's so ungreatful sometimes. Glad we made up as I hate sleeping on a fight.

 

[soulofLC]

Mad and sad at seeing old pictures of the first man I loved while looking for old pics of my kids. I still love him, even though he was a cross between a sadist and a saint, and brilliant at both. Still hurts but kicks my anger butt to the moon. Too destructive of a relationship to sustain and stay healthy. WTF, I don't understand why I still love him. One of the mysteries of life. Pats self on back for getting out!

 

[jo may]

Too destructive of a relationship to sustain and stay healthy. WTF, I don't understand why I still love him. One of the mysteries of life.

I know this feeling but with me I hate him just as much as I love him, he destroyed me and he sadly he knew only to well what he was doing to me:(

 

[soulofLC]

I understand, Jo May, I think on some level they need to destroy. I just didn't stay long enought in first one to go under. (3 years, but much damage).​

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Now the second man I loved, he did the worst number on me because it was so smooth and subtle (and 10 years of it). And he had to know what he was doing. I still love him too, but hate him for what he did to me.​

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With #1, I have had 23 years for some perspective. With #2, 4 1/2 years and still can't process. Working at it though. Funny, haven't missed either for the holidays!!!!​

 

[KP the nut]

My mind and body letting me down through pain and illnesses.

 

[soulofLC]

(((KP)))

I am angry, shaking as I write. My mother called me today from the hospital. She had been there 3 days. No one called me. I am livid. I called my dad and yelled at him. He said he didn't know what to say. I hung up on him. I will not feel mean, even though he is 93. He has done this to me so many times, for so many years, in so many ways.

Next on my shit list is my brothers. But what is the point of yelling at brick walls? They will probably just enjoy it like the sadists they are.