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What Made You Angry Today?

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I'm angry with my boss. He's usually a very sweet guy, but sometimes he can be such a complete butt-head. I needed someone to help a customer. Any other day would not have been an issue but this time he bites my head off because I should have just known to ask another guy (who NEVER works up front EVER) because the boss said he was too busy to handle customer service (like, since when?)

The boss is also one for taking say 88 phone calls without incidence and then jumping down my throat on call number 89 because I should just have KNOWN that he was too busy to be bothered.

All of this is so reminiscent of living with my late abusive "husband" I don't even know what to think or how to handle the situation. When the boss does this I just stand there with a smile pasted on my face but inside I'm cringing and my heart is racing and my arms start to tremble and I have to fight against the rising anxiety and to not physically run away from him and right out the front door. I spend the rest of the day fighting back tears and the feeling of being so stupid and worthless.

Because I could NEVER live up to the "husband's" expectations, and when I was so sure that I had done or said something right he would either raise the bar so you didn't actually meet his expectation that time, or he would completely blow up because I wasn't doing or saying anything right at all. ZERO consistency and ALWAYS having to walk on eggshells.

So, I am angry with my boss because he keeps changing the rules as we play the game and now I feel like I have to walk on eggshells around him which has put me back into high alert and is making me a complete nervous wreck.
 
He sounds charming. Possibly being kind of happy you're NOT the one he goes home to would be helpful. I'm guessing internet dating has been a God-send for this twerp, huh? Bet a bazillion bucks so has on-line shopping because before it's advent it was pretty embaressing for the guy shopping for his tighty-whities in the boy's section at JC Penny.

Schmuck. I realize passive-aggressive isn't healthy but my therapist says as long as we know we're engaged in it and why, at least we're not fooling ourselves. You're in an uneven power set-up, and not a winnable one. He knows this of course. You need your job, it's awful having to be at the mercy of these ninnies who make you FEEL your subserviance. I married one also, believe me, been there! Well, it's amazing how quickly you can get disengaged running some of that anger energy sideways, if possible. Think about the er, possibilities behind why he might be shopping for the tightie-whities in the kid's section, for instance, or sleeping on Batman sheets, pretty sure he has to be wearing Spock ears. Hee. Obviously one can't point one's finger at them and laugh, just does tend to help release that whole helpless anger thing.
 
My supervisor at work made a comment about one of our clients sons who is suffering from bipolar and hasn't been taking their medication. Without going into too much detail (confidentiality) they implied that we don't want people on medication around 'us' as they all mad.

This just really angered me as my supervisor knows a little bit about my situation (that I suffer from PTSD and I am in therapy and on medication) so in a way it felt like she was also including me. This isn't the first time this person has made me feel uncomfortable/ angry about their attitude (ignorance?) surrounding people with Mental Health problems, and I have spoken to my manager (who is incredibly supportive I should add) before about this but today I just couldn't hide my anger.

I told my supervisor that people with bipolar who aren't taking their medication are generally more of a danger to themselves than other people and are not likely to come to us for support because they are more likely to isolate themselves from other people.

If someone with bipolar is taking their medication correctly they are able to lead a fairly 'normal' life and chances are, unless they open up to you, you wouldn't even notice.

Other members of staff (including my manager) did back me up on this but I just still feel really angry about it. I know the comment wasn't directed at me and they probably didn't mean any harm towards me but it still hurt I suppose.
 
Yes, my head has done that thing where it's checked out on me today. You know what I mean, when the stress thing is too, too TOO huge, mixed in with liberal doses of 'threat' and your head just packs the bags and calls a cab. Anger? Yes. Fortunately am angry at alllll the 'Them's' out there, not binging this time on self-hatred. Progress.

ITL, ahem, this is disallowed. If someone else wrote that exact post I know what you'd have to say, which is Holyyyyy Heck, my fractured vertabrae/cancer survivor/bone marrow transplant/marraige healing/ business saving/domestic abuse surviving/world-class genius of a friend, give yourself a teeny little break? I know Deb and that's what she'd say because she's REALLY, really kind to other people, you should meet her. :)
 
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