Bernie's_mom
Bronze Member
I'm angry with my boss. He's usually a very sweet guy, but sometimes he can be such a complete butt-head. I needed someone to help a customer. Any other day would not have been an issue but this time he bites my head off because I should have just known to ask another guy (who NEVER works up front EVER) because the boss said he was too busy to handle customer service (like, since when?)
The boss is also one for taking say 88 phone calls without incidence and then jumping down my throat on call number 89 because I should just have KNOWN that he was too busy to be bothered.
All of this is so reminiscent of living with my late abusive "husband" I don't even know what to think or how to handle the situation. When the boss does this I just stand there with a smile pasted on my face but inside I'm cringing and my heart is racing and my arms start to tremble and I have to fight against the rising anxiety and to not physically run away from him and right out the front door. I spend the rest of the day fighting back tears and the feeling of being so stupid and worthless.
Because I could NEVER live up to the "husband's" expectations, and when I was so sure that I had done or said something right he would either raise the bar so you didn't actually meet his expectation that time, or he would completely blow up because I wasn't doing or saying anything right at all. ZERO consistency and ALWAYS having to walk on eggshells.
So, I am angry with my boss because he keeps changing the rules as we play the game and now I feel like I have to walk on eggshells around him which has put me back into high alert and is making me a complete nervous wreck.
The boss is also one for taking say 88 phone calls without incidence and then jumping down my throat on call number 89 because I should just have KNOWN that he was too busy to be bothered.
All of this is so reminiscent of living with my late abusive "husband" I don't even know what to think or how to handle the situation. When the boss does this I just stand there with a smile pasted on my face but inside I'm cringing and my heart is racing and my arms start to tremble and I have to fight against the rising anxiety and to not physically run away from him and right out the front door. I spend the rest of the day fighting back tears and the feeling of being so stupid and worthless.
Because I could NEVER live up to the "husband's" expectations, and when I was so sure that I had done or said something right he would either raise the bar so you didn't actually meet his expectation that time, or he would completely blow up because I wasn't doing or saying anything right at all. ZERO consistency and ALWAYS having to walk on eggshells.
So, I am angry with my boss because he keeps changing the rules as we play the game and now I feel like I have to walk on eggshells around him which has put me back into high alert and is making me a complete nervous wreck.