What Makes You Angry Today?

[Deleted member 43454]

Great info ODG.
Plenty of greedy f*ckers out there waiting to cash in on your hard earned benefits!

 

[Friday]

I just donate to this site, these days.

Cheaper than therapy, and a helluva lot more useful.

Oh. And bums. I'm notorious for buying oblivion for people far more biserable than me.

 

[combatgoldfish]

I never liked UA. WWP is a good cause but it's run the wrong way. I hoped the company I worked for would do something like that considering they have more of a long tradition of supporting the military.

Sometimes the best is giving it right to the veteran in need personally.

 

[holdenmonty]

I hear you on the wounded warrior project commercials. They take the guys that have amputations and only use them in their commercials or somebody visibly wounded.

What pisses me off is my brother in law. I ranted a bit in the thread called Family Just Don't Get It. He is your average civilian that is ignorant about combat PTSD and the military in general, and when I'm having a tough time in whatever situation he says some dumbass comment about how I'm ok and I don't need to worry and basically saying just get over it. The only thing that kept me from punching him in the face is that my wife would be pissed off at me if I punched him in the face, and then the fact that he's living with us now when he's my wife's older brother, and he is 10 years older than I am but he's living with us... and after telling him about my shit he says that my wife and I have it easy and have never really struggled. I wish I could kick him out of our house. I don't know why he didn't just stay with his mom when he was visiting her...

 

[dutchiedelta]

Crikey Holden, maybe I'm a mean old woman but could you sit the wife down, talk with her and tell her he has to go?
Life with PTSD is hard enough as it is.
Having a family and marriage is hard enough.
I cannot understand someone would put up with another nice person in the house. Let alone someone who seems clueless and not too keen on finding out how you feel. Just my thoughts my friend.

 

[holdenmonty]

Thanks dutchie, I have thought about it a couple times. Also we live on base and aren't suppose to have any non dependents living with us... which is one of the reasons I want to stay living on base. He moved out to Arizona with his girlfriend and her daughter and then his girlfriend up and left him and took her daughter and he fell into a really dark place and ended up loosing his really good job that he had. So part of me feels sorry for him but he doesn't have a car and doesn't have a job but says he will actively be looking for a job. I think I'm going to talk to the wife about once he gets a steady job and his own transportation that he lives on his own. It's not like he can't visit us he just can't live with us.

 

[holdenmonty]

So the thing that is making me angry today is this stupid computer training thing on the free exercise of religion. I don't find the computer training thing stupid but the fact that it says loading and never actually loads. But on the positive side when I close it and bring it back up it says that I have already completed that section that wouldn't load.

 

[Grizzly]

I make myself angry. I'm tired. Being on call sucks. I cant take a sleeping pill. These f*cking meds. Yeah. They keep the panic down. That's it. Right now. My minds says let this panic out! Can't. Sitting. On edge. Heart just going flutter. Flutter.

I have a pill. I can't take it. It destroys me. I can't function at work. Can't function. Yet it works for its intention. To shut me down. But there it sits. Staring at me.

My house creaks occasionally. Tiny little creaks. Or the contracting plastic on the tv after you turn it off. That creak. Might as well be a rifle crack. It's as if my body felt the shockwave. Too much external stimuli. It's all making me angry.

 

[holdenmonty]

So what makes me angry today is this stupid DRMO process to get ride of stuff. For some dumbass reason somebody thought it would be a good idea to give me the task of turning on 3 five drawer safes and 1 two drawer safe. I go to the website and create an account. I go back to the website today thinking that I will be able to log in and fill out the paperwork that is needed and for some reason my log in id and password don't work... Why the hell does this damn process have to be so damn difficult. If they want us to not clutter up areas with unused stuff then make the process to get ride of it easier. After I get done being pissed off at the system and the process I'm going to try to find somebody that can help because I tried calling the telephone numbers and just got voicemails or it just rang and rang and rang and nobody ever picked up the damn phone.

 

[RTO]

I make myself angry. I'm tired. Being on call sucks. I cant take a sleeping pill. These f*cking meds. Yeah. They keep the panic down. That's it. Right now. My minds says let this panic out! Can't. Sitting. On edge. Heart just going flutter. Flutter.

I have a pill. I can't take it. It destroys me. I can't function at work. Can't function. Yet it works for its intention. To shut me down. But there it sits. Staring at me.

My house creaks occasionally. Tiny little creaks. Or the contracting plastic on the tv after you turn it off. That creak. Might as well be a rifle crack. It's as if my body felt the shockwave. Too much external stimuli. It's all making me angry.

I can hear a moth flatulating a click away.

 

[holdenmonty]

What is pissing me off today is but it's slightly a combination of yesterday as well. So our guys have to make copies of these presentations they are giving to some generals and the one yesterday was close to 200 pages. Today they are making five copies of one that is 50 pages. And it has been a while since I have had to replace any of the toner in the copier and this morning I had to replace the black and the magenta and showed them how to do it and when it was time for the yellow one to be replaced they asked me to do it when I was working on some other stuff. And I had to show them how to put paper in it... These guys are old enough to be my dad and they have been doing this stuff longer then I have. You would think they can do it on their own but I guess it might just be their mindset that they don't want to mess it up or something but seriously... And I'm fighting with this stupid system to try and turn in 3 five drawer safes and 1 two drawer safe and it's like pulling teeth to get it done and they still aren't answering their phone. And it's starting to really piss me off I have been working it on and off this whole damn week.

 

[holdenmonty]

And something else that pisses me off today is the mental health office called and said that my T got tasked for something the same time as my appointment next Wednesday and I asked if there was any availability to meet with her before when I was suppose to have my appointment or the day after my appointment was suppose to be and they said the soonest they could get me in is the Tuesday after when I was suppose to meet with my T. This is the third time in the last 6 months that I have had to be rescheduled for about a week later then when I was suppose to meet with my T. I know it probably isn't rational thinking but it's starting to seem like they really don't give a flying f*ck about me anymore now that I'm on meds and have leveled out for the most part until I get pissed then I'm very angry. Sometimes I wonder if I control myself to much because right now I would like to go over there and tell them a few choice words. And just now somebody asked me to get a program on their computer when I don't even do that shit. I don't know why the f*ck people think I can do anything and everything. I wish I could stand up at my desk put on my coat yell f*ck you to everybody and walk out. But I can't...