Lack of clarity in conversations.
Miscommunication is common between people, but it sends me through the roof, specially when I am talking with someone that knows me pretty well. I had a fight with my fiancé this morning when she answered my question with a question. I f*cking lost it. This also happens to me when there is a problem that calls for immediate attention and solving, but people want to talk about how it makes them feel and why.
Sometimes, I miss the structure the military provided. Not the ordering people around, but how we came together to get shit done and AFTERWARDS, if need be, we talked about how we felt and what we thought. I miss seeing a problem, spitballing solutions as a group, then moving forward with conviction. I miss getting shit done.
A lot can be said for "common sense", like letting people exit an elevator before you enter, but the lack of awareness and consideration I perceive on a day-to-day basis is infuriating. I dunno. Maybe there just are too many people on the planet for this not to happen.
Today, what made me the angriest was acknowledging that I cannot, or refuse to, accept these things about people and myself. I'm glad to be out of the military and war zone, but cannot avoid getting angry and thinking "how have all these stupid motherf*ckers managed to survive THIS long, and am I one of them as well?"
I'm ranting, I'd go for a walk but it's too damn hot. Peaky Blinders it is then...