What Makes You Angry Today?

[SaharaSon]

What tick's me off today.

When at 5 am, someone's dog has escaped and roams the street and sets my dogs off. I know my dogs are only being protective, but f*ck me, waking me up with barking.

I know that I am five years late, and a dollar short, on this post. Jimmy, you can't look at it that way, bro. I love it when my dogs bark like hell at something. They are paying their way, and doing their job. They are like an extension of my senses and they let me know when something ain't right. They always wake me for a good reason. They man that point 24/7. I love my dogs to death. Couldn't live well without them. I have cried longer and harder when one of my dogs (or even cats) died than when people around me have died. That may not be a good thing to admit...I commune with my dogs. I think in a previous life I must have been a dog. I remember a beautiful young lady was doing a pysche study matching animal personalities to people in her class, most people tested out as bears, kitties, elephants, hyenas or whatever. I was a perfect match for dogs. They all like me, and I like them. I think I am going go save another one at the pound. Shalom.

 

[SaharaSon]

@vikingr24 I have to. The alternative gets me nowhere.

Which is strange given that my new therapist told me today that I need to embrace my anger. I told her that anger clouds my judgment and leads to bad decisions and that I have been trained to control it because of that. Clarity of thought has kept me alive for >20 deployments to countless shitholes. She then told me that anger is going to be a major part of releasing/processing many of my experiences. So much for logic.

Damn Cycle, I thought 3 or 4 deployments was too much. Don't you think 20 is kind of ridiculus? o_O I don't know how you did it. Sh*t. Forget brass, you must have titanium balls. The price that individuals like you, and Viking, and Knowbuddy pay is so very damn high. It really bothers the hell out of me that the vast majority of people out there have no...damn...clue...! They are in the fricken land of Oz. Cycle, if you get chance, use that brain of yours, that kept you alive for 20, and teach or tutor kids. I have been tutoring Math to kids that are stuggling, lately. Its one of the most rewarding things I have ever done. The public school system today sucks, royally. Believe me, they need a lot of help. We are just above Zimbabwae on the educational scale internationally. Nice. I tutor one, two or three kids at a time. I can't handle a whole classroom, it's to much like a zoo. Shalom.

 

[CyclePath]

@SaharaSon They weren't all combat deployments.

Teaching sure has crossed my mind; I'm also seriously considering graduate study. I need to get my shit straight before I do either.

 

[SaharaSon]

@SaharaSon They weren't all combat deployments.

Teaching sure has crossed my mind; I'm also seriously considering graduate study. I need to get my shit straight before I do either.

No, just 90%. I bet some of those those non combat deployments were pretty wicked. I know what was going on in Western Africa a little while back. I ain't forgot. Cycle, I want to use the tutoring as a bridge to the heavier math. I had some graduate work quite awhile back, didn't finish the program. I got to get rid of some of the cobwebs. Damn, there is a lot of them. It's a low stress way to get my math shit back together again. I got side tracked with some medical studies for a while, but I want to get back into math. I've got to take the GRE, should be pretty easy with a little prep. The Advanced Math GRE will be quite a bit more work, alot more. I've got to do really well on it. I need it so I can get a free ride in a good department. My credit is shit city, I'm in so deep the banks want to send hit men after me. Doesn't matter, there is always a way. We'll get 'er done one way or another. Shalom.

 

[Deleted member 43454]

Lmao "the banks wanna send hit men after me" that's too good. I found out last time I tried to just push through and go to school I couldn't concentrate for shit and lost interest real quick in all the math for electrical engineering. Pretty much wasted a year of my school benefits. It's been a long enough while now that I've gained enough clarity of mind. Just got no idea what the hell would even be interesting to do. The idea of school leaves me feeling like screw that. The idea that they prolong your studies to gain more money from you and teach you shit you don't need to know pertaining to your job was the icing on the cake for me.

 

[SaharaSon]

Lmao "the banks wanna send hit men after me" that's too good. I found out last time I tried to just push through and go to school I couldn't concentrate for shit and lost interest real quick in all the math for electrical engineering. Pretty much wasted a year of my school benefits. It's been a long enough while now that I've gained enough clarity of mind. Just got no idea what the hell would even be interesting to do. The idea of school leaves me feeling like screw that. The idea that they prolong your studies to gain more money from you and teach you shit you don't need to know pertaining to your job was the icing on the cake for me.

I'm in deep Dr., I can't say how deep in polite conversation! I redefined what it means to be in deep. o_O If I want to make it big, I have to live vicariously through a corprate logo that I created out of thin air. I have to reinvent myself through my own corporation. I don't mind being a corporate contractor the rest of my life. It could be fun and profitable! I sure as hell can't get anywhere using my real name. Sh*t. My real name is mud. :( I was a Nuc major for a couple of years before I switched into Math. I like engineering alot, too. Electrical is a really tough major. I am a pretty good fit for Systems Eng. I definitely am going to work Operations Research into my math program. Keep at Dr., you may want chip around the edges for awhile by going part time, or knocking off some of the bear (weed out) courses, one at a time (sometimes you can learn the material better that way), before you go in for the kill. Stay in engineering, or the hard sciences, when you finish you really have something valuable. The need, and the demand is through the f*ckin' roof. You can write your own ticket. Shalom.

 

[CyclePath]

@SaharaSon You're right, some of those deployments in the "other" category left their mark. Mostly the humaritarian type deployments to areas like Haiti after the earthquake, Sumatra after the tsunami, West Africa during the ebola outbreaks, etc... entire villages where every kid has whooping cough & hundreds have polio, etc... Combining those experiences with the natural tendancy of locals to chop each other up with machetes made a mark. You know what I mean. My problem is that I liked thinking that I a was making a difference and I was trying to "lead where you are" - that's why I did it for so long. Those thoughts combined with our conversation here drove me today to the Book of Ezra. I think you and Dr.Knowbuddy should give it a quick read. Either way, may the hand of God be with you in whatever you do. Peace!

 

[Deleted member 43454]

Thanks for the advice an sounds unfortunate about your debt. But sounds like you know what you gotta do to get by at the same time. I'd like to be my own boss maybe start a little firearms training business out here I had created cards and all previously but at that time my anxiety was so bad thankfully it's not how it was before. First things first I'm going to be hitting the gym. My credits not the best either I owed a lot of money on my way out the army especially not being paid for the last two months. Slowly but surely it's outa the red and into the orange lol.

 

[SaharaSon]

@SaharaSon You're right, some of those deployments in the "other" category left their mark. Mostly the humaritarian type deployments to areas like Haiti after the earthquake, Sumatra after the tsunami, West Africa during the ebola outbreaks, etc... entire villages where every kid has whooping cough & hundreds have polio, etc... Combining those experiences with the natural tendancy of locals to chop each other up with machetes made a mark. You know what I mean. My problem is that I liked thinking that I a was making a difference and I was trying to "lead where you are" - that's why I did it for so long. Those thoughts combined with our conversation here drove me today to the Book of Ezra. I think you and Dr.Knowbuddy should give it a quick read. Either way, may the hand of God be with you in whatever you do. Peace!

Dog, you like to "go where no man has gone before" . Man oh man oh man. Ebola, polio, and whooping cough. Like I said, get that bio-suit on ASAP. I had Micro, but we sure heck didn't deal with those cowboys. That's Fort Detrick stuff. I think I'd rather be dodging bullets. What was that about a quick read? Your read reading assignment is a tough one, but an important one. I am still working on it. It might have been easier to assign "The Divine Comedy". It has alot of analogous relevance to today. The return to Jerusalem, Israel and to Eloheim. Rebuilding that relationship. We all have been wandering in the Wilderness long enough, wouldn't you say? Baruch atah Adonai. Shalom.

 

[SaharaSon]

Thanks for the advice an sounds unfortunate about your debt. But sounds like you know what you gotta do to get by at the same time. I'd like to be my own boss maybe start a little firearms training business out here I had created cards and all previously but at that time my anxiety was so bad thankfully it's not how it was before. First things first I'm going to be hitting the gym. My credits not the best either I owed a lot of money on my way out the army especially not being paid for the last two months. Slowly but surely it's outa the red and into the orange lol.

It's no big deal Dr., I'll get there by hook or crook. Just got to do a big work around. No a frontal attack, I just got to outflank the hell out of that b*tch. This too shall pass. Its like the Rothschilds say, "Own nothing, control everything." In the final analysis, there is only one debt that is completely within our control and is of prime importance. It's our debt to Adonai. Everything else pales in comparison. Your business ideas sound good. Don't forget to do a website. I started a little one. Its not hard to do yourself. You can start small, get more sophisticated over time, as time permits. It's kind of an interesting endeavor. There are bussinesses out there that do nothing but design web sites. I have more than a passing interest in the graphic arts. Shalom.

 

[SaharaSon]

@SaharaSon You're right, some of those deployments in the "other" category left their mark. Mostly the humaritarian type deployments to areas like Haiti after the earthquake, Sumatra after the tsunami, West Africa during the ebola outbreaks, etc... entire villages where every kid has whooping cough & hundreds have polio, etc... Combining those experiences with the natural tendancy of locals to chop each other up with machetes made a mark. You know what I mean. My problem is that I liked thinking that I a was making a difference and I was trying to "lead where you are" - that's why I did it for so long. Those thoughts combined with our conversation here drove me today to the Book of Ezra. I think you and Dr.Knowbuddy should give it a quick read. Either way, may the hand of God be with you in whatever you do. Peace!

By the way Cycle, you didn't just make a difference, you made a Hell of a difference. Shalom.

 

[Deleted member 43454]

For sure man. I just don't figure Rothschild's methods and my soul see eye to eye. "For what shall it profit to gain the whole world but lose your soul?" Long as I make enough to survive I'm straight. :)