thomas.robinson.54966
Silver Member
I have written what I remember what happened that night at shades of green. Now since it has played over and over in my head I have the full story. Ok it was a great 2nd day of a great weekend. We were at the outlet mall. I could save $5 if I text this number. J said I should text it. I pull out my phone. That is when I notice something in my in box. She saw it too. I recognized the area code and new it could be no good. I froze I freaked. I then disappeared to make the message disappear bc I didn't even know what it read still. It was from an ex girl friend. It said hope you are doing good. What if I came to Florida? I really froze. I. Was physically ill. The crowds at the outlet mall already had me on edge. I had diarrehea. So the ride to the room was awful victories to lie to make things better which it didn't. I feel like such. Ass ideas getting sicker. When we got to shades of green I went for a walk. When I got back she was packed and leaving. I wanted to talk. I wanted to salvage everything plus I rode in her van and I felt abandoned. I threw her stuff I cussed I yelled I blocked her from leaving. She. Pointed her finger in my face. I tried to bite it. She hit me in the face. Then again. I lost it I snapped. The next thing I know she is against the bed with my hand around her throat. I am so sorry. I have been to counseling 3 times to finally get this out. To all I am sorry. To Jeannie H. I would give my life for that to never happen to you I wish I would have just handed you my phone I am just a worthless piece of crap. I am sorry.
