What The Mirror Said

[justwannabeme]

They say it takes 21 days to break a habit so that means at least 21 days of saying it as if you really want to believe it. Belief is crucial too.

21 days....some take a little longer, 21 years is more my speed!
This is a struggle, daily. I have recently lost about 80 lbs and I still don't see it. I know the weight is gone, my clothes tell me that. But when I look in that piece of glass, I don't see it. My T is always tellling me I'm worthy and lots of people comment on the weight loss. I didn't tried to loose it ,maybe that's why I don't see it. Sounds silly to the average person yes, maybe, but we're not average. I'm pretty sure we are the lucky ones, there are so many out there that don't have PTSD and will never get well. And we have Anthony to bring us these amazing articles to help us on our journey. I am going to add a few of these to my "daily list", I have to keep a spreadsheat with a list of to do's, really basic stuff like eat and get groceries, take meds and go to bed.
Thanks! from this worthy bean

 

[Nicolette]

21 days....some take a little longer, 21 years is more my speed!
This is a struggle, daily. I have recently lost about 80 lbs and I still don't see it.

Sorry but I am going to disagree....... you did change a habit as you lost 80lbs which is awesome and I bet it wasn't the habit that was the hardest to change - it is your mindset which obviously you and your T are working on. You must have changed a habit to loose the weight - if you hadn't nothing would have changed. Your mind however is stuck in a pattern of negativity with self image and I wish you the strength to overcome that.

 

[anni]

I thanked Nicolette's post, Just, because you do have company and if there's one thing I'll completely not give myself an ounce of room on it's this self image, self confidence thing. I know exactly how ingrained it is- at this point it's like the same as knowing my eyes are green. It feels THAT permanant. The thing resisting it best is the flat knowledge this isn't correct- since no, it isn't felt like some of the other aspects of working through the PTSD dreck. Something got that 80 pounds elsewhere for you, something got me volountarily away from someone who wished me to be dead, attracted a genuinely lovely husband. So the connect is there somewhere- the break in this stupid loop being made permanant. There's the positive, pretty sure.

 

[justwannabeme]

The negativity with self image is so true. And thank you for the wish, working on it.
The way I lost is not from diet or exercise....stress, nightsweats and just not eating.
Not really any credit for extra hard work to loose it, but I am on a pretty restricted diet. No cow, none of it, no goat, no soy, no msg, no booze, no smokes, no caffiene, no codeine.
Kicked the booze 24 years, smokes 18 years, the cow and food stuff about 2 years. Have to stay away from scents, any type of scented candles, stores, homes, aftershave.
I would love to have a beer, piece of pizza, a smoke and a cup of tea and white happy birthday cake, store bought. In any order and I might as well have a steak for desert! Living Large!!
I ate some ju jube' gummy candy, there's cow in them, who would of thought it, and I was sick for two weeks..... from ju jube's. Mcdonald's fries, it's in there, trident gum, in there too, mints, yup.....yikes!