VD, I am so glad you left him, and so pissed that life does that. Those abusive people isolate you and then abuse you. And you stay strong all that time, just to get smacked in the face by PTSD.
Ronin47, yeah, it was ongoing. Doesn't seem as dramatic as what a lot of PTSD sufferers have experienced, but the position I held in my family was no-good...my brother is a self-diagnosed narcissist who chose me as his little chew-toy to test out how "strong" he was and what he was capable of. He said it was easy to push my buttons. Also, when he went on his huge rages or depression, or whatever it was, my parents focused on him while I was in the other room just trying to deal with it. Once he attacked my boyfriend. When I'd fight back or defend myself against him, the answer was usually to stop "causing a fight" when I was really just stepping up and defending myself against chronic injustice. And then he confided in me all kinds of really scary things, or about his sexual habits, and I just held those secrets for him because I was afraid he'd have no one else to tell. My plan was to tell mom and dad if it got too crazy, but I totally missed the boat. So, a bully brother with an enabling family lead this little people pleaser into an abusive relationship with yet another manipulative narcissist in early college, so now I have all kinds of traumatic memories that I haven't dealt with yet. It comes up with my boyfriend all the time. It isn't fair. He's such a kind, trustworthy, loving person, and my body won't trust him. He can't kiss my hand sometimes without me flipping out. I hate my breasts sometimes, I wish they weren't there. I'd feel a lot safer.
daniel--how is the GERD going? I've had it since 1st grade, but have found ways to manage it without taking pills. I maintain by avoiding large amounts of citrus, sugar, caffeine, alcohol, etc, but what really really helped me was Orange Peel Extract...doctor had me on Prilocek and it was not helping very much and I didn't like just taking pills all the time. Seemed like a bad long-term choice. The orange peel extract worked WONDERS. Look it up, message me if you have any questions about it.