When Doves Cry...

[Pixielicious]

I live in hell. Pure and utter hell and I want to die.
I have severe PTSD and am on no medication because I stopped taking them.
I can't eat sleep or go anywhere.
I avoid people, public places like the plague...My mind is not mine, i cannot control what i say, do or think....I Hate what I've become. I don't know who or what i am anymore...

 

[Nevermore]

@Faeriefire
This was a couple of days ago! Are you still feeling this bad?? I hope not...
When you say you stopped medication, did you stop cold turkey? I know that can make everything a hell of a lot worse. I had to taper off mine really slowly.
Your mind belongs to you, but It sounds like you are feeling chaotic inside. I used to get like that a lot.
Self care is so important in recovery - I know, and it's really hard to do when your nervous system is all over the place.
I hope things have calmed down a bit for you. There's lots of good info on this site and people who understand.
Hang in there!

 

[John30]

I feel your pain!

 

[void]

@Faeriefire

How did you translate my exact thoughts into text?:wideeyed:
Google has a job offer for you.;)

Though it means f'all, I live what you speak.
May you somehow have some relief.:hug:

 

[Pixielicious]

Hello everyone, I had forgotten I wrote this.... Was in flashback mode when I wrote this.
Just finished writing in the assault forum...Was Suicidal again last night... But am still here... And fighting.
Thank you for your support... 47 female here.