When You Are In So Deep You Can't Even Look At Your Supporter :(

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Thank you all.

We are doing better. I have more therapy sessions this week. I worry that I am going to forget who I am seeing in front of me but I have seen myself be able to stop several times this past weekend, knowing I'm responsible for my reactions and what I am feeling just MAY have not much to do with what is going on. (I did talk to him about it each time afterward so he would know why I would suddenly stop talking.)

I know he will never totally understand what has happened to me or why I am struggling like I am but he has never ridiculed me either, not once.

I hate the heightened state I'm in this past year and how touchy I've become more often but I appreciate the information and support.